Gralex (Boyxboy)

Part five

Alex's PoV

I had told him. I had told the cute anxious guitarist I liked him. Well I had been drunk and I didn't know wether that made anything better or worse. I could hardly remember anything but I do think I heard him say he liked me too. He was probably just anxious and drunk and I had squeezed it out of him by hugging him and kissing his neck. A "I like you" can mean many things as well... I think I was quite clear with what I meant but he probably didn't mean the same thing.
I sighed. My house was probably a mess and I was hopelessly in love with my band mate that was too blindly in love with my other band mate to see it. Even if he'd noticed he'd never get together with me. I couldn't help but think back to when we were in uni together, Me and Graham, splitting a room and no Damon.
I heard someone knock on the door. Knocking? Now? Who could that be? Everyone who knew me knew I had parties till late and people usually came and left as they pleased without knocking or anything. I got up, still in the same gross clothes as yesterday and rolled my eyes realising it was no idea I'd change now.
I went down the stairs and opened my door. There he was- Graham. Standing in front of me. "H-hey" he mumbled blushing softly. " oh ello Gra what you doing here? Got home safely last night?" I heard myself say not able to take my eyes of Graham. He nodded and said "I.. I think I might've left my jacket here.." I let him in at once very conscious of my body odour and bad condition. "I'm sorry I stink" I chuckled and Graham blushed "you don't stink.." He said, searching the floors for his jacket. I giggled "it's okay Gra I know I do, I.. I'm gonna shower later" I saw his cheeks redden a bit more and walked a bit closer, suddenly he stood up and turned against me forcing us face to face.
His cheeks turned bright red and a warm feeling spread in my chest. I knew it wasn't the alcohol that had made me kiss his neck last night cos I had wanted to for so long, but it was certainly helping. Standing about twice as far away from him as I had been yesterday, it seemed like a distant dream to hold him in my arms. "Found it" he whispered under his breath and We both knew we were thinking of the night before. Was that a good thing? A bad thing? "It wasn't the alcohol" I whispered back. I saw it in his dark eyes that he had understood what I said. They widened softly and it was like he exploded inside. Was it that bad? Maybe it ruined our friendship and we'd have to split the band and then it had all been my fault. Graham nodded slowly as his eyes turned focused again. Graham stared at me for a moment looking like he wanted to say something and then he scuffed past me and out the door. And there went the last glimpse of hope I had that he'd like me. I felt like the world was falling apart around me. He didn't like me and I had told him ruining our friendship and everything in between. I went upstairs and drunk the last of what I had offered Graham last night, and everything else I could find in my room as the tears slowly filled my eyes and trailed my cheeks. We were never gonna be able to talk like normal again cos I had told him. Oh stupid stupid me.

Authors note: hey another chapter! What you think so far? Make sure you comment and vote and ily all <3