Gralex (Boyxboy)

Part four

Alex danced slowly to the music and I tried not to make it too obvious I was watching him. His body always seemed released when he didn't have the bass, the bass belonged to him but without it around his neck his body could move freely. It was beautiful.

I couldn't tell wether it was the alcohol kicking in again or if it was in fact the cheese prince's movements that made my pain numb but it did.
It was probably both.

He glanced at me and smiled when he saw I was observing him. "This is a great song to dance to" he said. I supposed it was, I hadn't heard it before but it was great, I nodded and looked over at the window as the first light of dawn peered through the window. I sighed heavily, another day. I hadn't been run over by a car and the alcohol hadn't killed me like I sort of hoped and sort of feared. My anxiety only let me think like that right now, when the world was asleep and my nerves were numbed by my drink. In any other case I would've given myself an anxiety attack, thinking like that.

Alex came and sat down next to me as the next song went on. "A new morning" he mumbled as if he'd read my thoughts. I let my eyes wander over to him and realised he wasn't looking at the window, or the floor where the light was spreading, but on me. I felt my cheeks turn red and smiled my goofy smile, I couldn't help it, he looked into my eyes and he got closer and closer. If I hadn't been drunk I'd probably let my anxiety take me away from there by now but now I didn't do anything about it. I just smiled.

He was really close now, I had only ever been this close to Damon and some women before, that I could think of. I couldn't think much at all my brain didn't want to work.

He smelled of cheese and his arms slowly embraced me as his lips pressed against my neck. I moaned softly and blushed even deeper. "It might just be the alcohol but I think I like you Gra" he whispered against my neck. I couldn't breathe, or move. I felt the anxiety grow in my entire body- I needed a drink but I couldn't ruin the moment. I needed to get away but I knew I couldn't. I felt his arms around me holding me tighter and it was like he pressed all my pieces together again and I could move. I didn't know what to do, my heart beat harder in my chest as I whispered "I like you too" and shrugged him off.

I couldn't see where I went I didn't remember anything else than that I woke up on the floor in Damon's and my flat.
I sat up and groaned in pain .My entire body was aching due to a rough night. Damon came walking through the kitchen, which apparently was were I had slept tonight, a towel wrapped around his waist. "Mornin" he said looking tired. But he was still smiling softly. He was smiling that idiotic proud smile he always smiled when he had shagged and I got up walking to my room, frankly because I couldn't stand it.
I knew it was silly, Damon had a girlfriend and they could do whatever they wanted but I always felt jealous and irritated with both of them.
As soon as I got away from Damon I couldn't stop thinking about Alex. He had probably just been really drunk and lonely.. But what if he hadn't.. What if he actually liked me? The thought was absurd but I still wanted to make sure it wasn't that way, just in case. I really hoped he liked me.

I suddenly realised how hungry I was. I forced myself out in the kitchen again, and ate trying to ignore Damon and Justine eating each other up next to me. Then I left without a word. I wanted to get away from them. I didn't know where to go, and I didn't know where I was heading until I was standing outside Alex' place. The mind has a strange way of telling you what to do sometimes. My palms were sweaty, I should knock. I should just knock that goddamn door but I couldn't.

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