Gralex (Boyxboy)

Part eleven

Damon's PoV

I was really worried for Graham. He hadn't come home yesterday or the day before and I just didn't know what to do or who to call. I was pacing back and forth in our kitchen trying to think of something to do. Justine had took yet another shot of the drugs she always used. Probably staring at a wall in another room. She had asked me to join her and it was quite tempting but I had to stay clean for Graham. I wouldn't do drugs when I didn't know where he was.
I tapped my foot against the floor, restlessly, the abstinence really getting to me now.
Fuck I needed a hit so bad where the fuck was he?
I heard the door open and I got out of my abstinence state walking over to the door where Graham was. He was wearing someone else's clothes and had quite a bed head.
"Ello Gra, where've you been?" I said and he just passed me walking over to his room. I followed him waiting for him to respond but he didn't. He just started to pack a bag. I was really confused by now "where are you going?" I said and he didn't respond "I'm talking to you! Where've you been for the last two days? I've been worried sick for you I even rejected getting high with Justine!" Graham just looked at me for a second. Then he closed his bag and walked back to the door scoffing past me.
"Graham?!" I yelled at him and he looked at me with tears in his eyes "stop fucking pretend you care about me... I was with Alex... Alex loves me and I love him.. So can you just leave me alone cos every time you kiss me you never mean it and I can't be a toy you can play with just whenever you feel like it Damon! I have feelings too.. And you're hurting me".
I looked at him in shock. I knew Graham hadn't always been fully okay with me going out with other people but I never thought he'd feel that bad about it. I also understood just why now. He loved Alex..? Alex loved him..? They couldn't... They didn't really... Did they? His words really hurt.
"You love him ey? Since when? Since he stuck his huge cock up your ass? Well surprise but he does that and he's gonna leave you, he doesn't love you!! You're just another sex toy for him!" I didn't know what I was saying I just wanted Graham to get away from Alex and come to me. " I love you! I'll always love you Graham.. Don't go" I said, my voice turning brittle and thin. He walked out the door and I collapsed on the floor. Fuck I needed a hit.
I got up and stumbled in to Justine who was just heating the next shot on a spoon with a lighter. She looked at me and immidiately understood that I wanted her to do for me too. I was probably still crying, I couldn't focus on anything else but the injection that would soon make me forget all about Graham and stupid, disgusting Alex. It would also hopefully stop the impulse that was flowing in my body, to kill Alex.
Justine fastened the belt around my upper arm and slapped my veins a little to make them bulge out. Then she injected the needle, waited for a little blood to come up in the injection before she let the heroine flow out in my blood. I gasped and felt the pleasure take over my body. I zoned out.

Graham's PoV
I cried all the way to Alex's place. It felt good in a way to show Damon that he couldn't just do what he wanted with me but I loved him so much and it hurt to push him away. I had told Alex that I'd probably have to do that when we decided I'd get some clothes and stay at his place for a few days though, so he was prepared when I got back.
He ran to me as quick as I got in the door and hugged me. I hugged him back as I lost all the power I had pressured myself to have so I could walk. My knees couldn't hold me up and Alex picked me up hushing me. "It's okay Graham.." He said softly and kissed my neck. He carried me and my bag to his room and laid me down in his huge bed kissing me and stroking my back. "I'm gonna make you some tea and then we're gonna lay here till you calm down Awright?" He said softly trying to look into my eyes. He shook me when I didn't answer "Awright?" I nodded "Awright".
He kissed my nose and went downstairs. He got back with two big cups of tea and put them down on a small bedside table.
He pulled me up so I was sitting up and stripped me down to my boxers, and then stripped himself to boxers as well.
He held me close and kissed my neck letting me sob till there were no more tears. Then he sat up and pulled me up in his lap with his back against the wall and the covers wrapped around us. He handed me one cup of tea and kissed my nose.
"You wanna watch a movie love?" He whispered and I nodded. He put me down in the bed and put on the telly across the bed and put on 'trainspotting' it had been a movie I had loved a long time but the drugs reminded me of Damon now which made me sad. But Alex held me in his knee throughout the film and the tea was sweet and spicy. Alex was perfect, I knew he was hurt that I was heartbroken over someone who wasn't him but he didn't show any of it, he took care of me and made me feel loved and taken care of. He didn't just want me to shag with, like Damon had said, in that case he'd never take care of me this way.
Alex made us both macaroni and cheese for dinner and we ate it watching a Disney movie, which was pretty good.
When I yawned he turned the telly off and prepared us both for sleep.
He turned off the lights, leaving one small lamp on that spread a beautiful pale red light over us, then he laid down in the bed and held me with his strong arms against his chest. This is when I started crying again, but this was a very different kind of crying. This was tears streaming down my face without a sound and I wasn't really sad, I was just.. Sad and happy and in love.
Alex dried my tears "he's not worth your tears baby" he whispered and I smiled "they're not for him." I responded.
I could barely see his face in the pale light but I knew he was looking at me confused.
"Thank you.. For taking care of me.. I really love you" I whispered and heaved myself up so I could kiss his lips properly. He smiled happily and hugged me closer. "I really love you too"

Authors note: tis been a while and I'm sorry I've been writing a lot on my other stories! I'm sorry again for publishing and unpublishing again and again, but thank you all for reading xoxo