Bloodbag [bxb]

Chapter IV: forgive and forget?

[alexander] 

Two days had passed since that fatal Starbucks date and I was growing weaker by the second. It was stupid of me to tell him that. I knew he was going to react the way he did. He should've let me finish on the love topic though- it's true not all vampires fell in love with their mates, but most did. After all there was a reason why the gods had put us together. 

"Goddamnit." I kicked an empty can as I walked through the park. I knew I had to give him time to think about this but I couldn't stand this much longer. In three days my body wouldn't be able to cope with the blood loss that I was already experiencing because I couldn't drink from anyone but him. I had always planned to make my mate fall in love with me, because I knew that I would love my mate as soon as I saw them. Noah's handsome face appeared in my mind and I groaned. I had loved him for almost two centuries now, even though he'd been a faceless shadow back then. My friends all thought I was crazy but as soon as I found out I would have a mate, I started thinking about them and slowly but surely knew I would love them unconditionally. I just hoped that he would come around. He had refused to open the door for me that day but I couldn't blame him as much as I wanted to. He should've let me finish. 

-

When I looked up the next time I found myself in front of his apartment block again. I rushed up the stairs to his flat, I had to talk to him again. His smell overwhelmed me and although there was a door and at least one wall between us, I felt my body weakening for him. I raised my hand to ring the doorbell but my fingers slipped and I brushed it only lightly as I was caught in another dizzy spell. Everything went blurry and black spots started dancing in my vision. My legs buckled and I fell to my knees as I clutched my head in pain; I felt sick but knew I couldn't throw up, because I hadn't eaten anything. The door unlocking and being pulled open rang through my brain and I cried out in pain. I heard a gasp and then I was being pulled into the flat. I couldn't even be properly happy as he pulled me up and onto his couch because my vision went black and I heaved as my body tried to throw up. 

"What happened?" Noah's voice rang out painfully loud in my ears and I winced. He felt my forehead and I must've been burning up because he pulled back hissing and left. I whimpered when I lost physical contact with him but he was back in a second with a cold towel that he draped on my forehead. 

"Sh- it's okay. I'm here." He whispered and this time I didn't wince as he spoke. 

-

I tried to open my eyes but there was something stopping me. Wincing I moved my arm and lifted it to my face; a smile crossed my face that had me wincing again when I felt a wet towel on my face. 

"Oh Sleeping Beauty is awake?" His voice was heaven and I sat up carefully, still wincing with every movement to see him entering the room with a bowl of what looked like soup. 

"I made soup- 's the only thing I have right now. I need to go shopping. It's carrot-coriander." I sent him a thankful smile and took the bowl. He sat down opposite me and watched as I took a careful sip. I could tell the soup was hot but I couldn't feel the heat or taste it for that matter. The severe blood loss of the last two days had killed my tastebuds so everything tasted like nothing. I gulped down the soup only to make him happy, seeing as he had obviously made it for me, but the only thing that could really help me was his blood. And judging by the guilty look on his face, he knew that.