~Maybe, Probably, Yes~ [assassin love story]

Chapter 5

*time skip: 3 years later. It's winter now*

Pov Y/n

So I think we could say these 3 years were kind of crazy but also amazing. Natasha, Steve and I were getting closer each day and now we nearly spend every day hanging out together. Nat and I spend even more time together and she often sleeps at my house or I sleep in her room. My mom literally loves the redhead and I can see Tasha likes her too. Sometimes Nat would just stay over night talking with my mom the whole evening until late night while I was sleeping to get up early for work. They were like best friends. My mom hasn't really met Steve that often but I did tell her about my feelings. She still supported me. Natasha has set up some I would say dates for us. They were great don't get me wrong but I was able to see that Steve wasn't really seeing any future together. I still told him about my feelings more or less in a forced way but still. He said he doesn't feel the same but it could maybe happen in the future. So for now we're just best friends. I think it's still good though I mean I can't have everything, right? For the first weeks after I confessed my feelings we kept the distance but now we're back to normal. It was kinda weird at first but anyways. Natasha has always been there for me and helping me with everything. I really appreciate everything she did for me and I hope some day I may return everything to her. She's become my comfort character. Around her I feel safer than ever, I feel protected. I know I can tell her everything and I trust her with my whole heart. She's just wonderful. We've become closer than ever and I wish that I'll never ever loose her.
I've been spending many evenings with the Avengers playing truth or dare or spin the bottle. It's fun and we all became closer as well. I'm feeling like I became a part of their family. I got a room for when I decide to stay over but I mostly sleep at Natasha's. They all say we'd give up an amazing couple but we're just best friends. She has been on some missions and I was scared when I saw everything live on TV.

Well as you could see these 3 years were a whole rollercoaster of emotions. Many ups and downs but I guess I'll make it. All in all I've been a lot happier than before and my mom and I are living an amazing life.

Right now Tony, Steve, Thor, Bruce, Natasha and I are sitting in a circle playing spin the bottle. It's my turn. I spin. The bottle lands on Natasha. "So Nat, what question do I have for you now? Do you like someone at the moment? No name needed I don't want to cross your boundaries.". "Well yes I do like someone at the moment.". Wait I did not expect that. She has never talked about it. Well we mostly never talk about love if it's not about me and Steve. If I'm honest with myself I don't even know if it's still love for Steve or more the fear of breaking him when he feels the same someday since he said it might happen.

"Nat. Could we talk alone for a bit? It won't take long and you can be back quickly", I look into the redheads eyes seeing a bit of worry in her eyes. "Yeah for sure we can, let's get on the balcony, we're alone there. And don't worry we can take as long as you need the others can continue without us. I don't mind. Come on", she says calmly raising her arm so I can link my arm into hers. Together we walk outside closing the door behind us. We sit down and she looks me into the eyes trying to study me. Natasha always does that. She literally studies my whole body language to see how I am or what I'm up to.
"Uhm, alright so. I don't really know how to start this but okay. I think I might have lost my feelings for Steve. I think I don't love him anymore. I guess I was just scared to tell anyone especially him because I though he'd maybe be mad or whatever. I know it's so pathetic no I'm pathetic but...", I try to continue but Natasha takes my hands stopping me from talking. "Hey hey hey, now listen to me before you say anything more. You are not pathetic nor is any of this here okay? It's alright to loose feelings and you don't need to feel bad for it or fear that. It is normal human being. Look I also lost the feelings for Steve. Well maybe it's because of him in general that women loose feelings but anyways", she jokes and I giggle a bit "but the most important thing is that no matter if you tell him or not he won't change it. And by the way I know Steve for all these years I can tell you he won't be mad or anything. He's your best friend and he loves you in exactly that way no matter what. Oh and if he says something against you imma just beat his ass as I always do. Don't worry I got you", she slightly pushes me. "I guess you're right. Thank you, Tasha", I commit. "I'm always right but seriously don't make your little cute head worry too much. You still need it. And don't thank me please, I'd always do it for you.".
She hugs me and we both just remain like that for some minutes in silence until she talks again "What do you think, should we go inside and tell the rest we're tired? Then we can go into my room and watch a movie or whatever you want to. How does that sound?", she offers. "Yeah that would be amazing. Thank you, Nat.".

Said and done, soon later, we're in her room watching The 100. It's a series we both love. Especially Lexa and Clarke but mostly Lexa. I cuddle myself up in Natashas arms while she caresses my head softly.
How do I deserve this? Since the first day she has been so kind to me. She literally saved my life and the life of my mom. I can't imagine what I'd do without her.
I hear her heartbeat because my head is resting on her chest. It's so even. I could listen to it forever.

We continue watching 2 more episodes. "It's getting really late. Do you wanna sleep here? We can share my bed as always", she cuckles slightly. I nod cuddling more up in her arms. "Hey you sleepyhead, we should maybe still change into our Pyjamas. You can cuddle up at me after that again okay?". "Mhrrr fine", I grumble.
She picks out short pants and a t-shirt for both of us and goes changing in the bathroom. I follow her also getting ready.
"Some music?", she asks and I nod. Natasha turns on the radio and we both start to sing to the songs loudly while brushing our teeth.

Pov Natasha

It's fun and we both sing as loud as we can. I
gotta be honest, Y/n's voice is amazing and she can sing so pretty.
We finish getting ready and I turn off the radio. I place myself in the bed and gesture her to come into my arms. She happily jumps on me now cuddling up with her head on my chest. I caress her back a bit before she yawns. "Good night, дорогой". "You speak russian?", she asks in a sleepy voice. "Yes of course I am. I am from Russia.",I giggle. "Oh yeah right I remember. It sounds pretty when you talk like that. Good night, Tasha". I smile seeing as she tries to come closer to me even if she already is as close as possible.

Pov Y/n
I yawn again and soon after sleep catches us, and I close my eyes with a wonderful feeling in my stomach.