~Maybe, Probably, Yes~ [assassin love story]

Chapter 8

Pov Y/n

"Morning sleepyhead," someone says in a rough morning voice. I grumble and turn my head now, looking into those amazing emerald green eyes of Natasha. I smile. "Good morning. How long have you been awake?". "Mhm, about 20 minutes, I guess. I got you breakfast.".
Why isn't it like that every day? I could get used to it.

Together, we eat some eggs with bacon and bread while continuing to watch The 100.
"Agent Romanoff, you are expected downstairs in the meeting room. The team has arrived and needs to make the plans for the next mission.", JARVIS announces.
"Well, I have to go but you can come and join for a while if you want. You can meet the rest of the team but then you'll have to leave for the plans. No one is allowed to know them except for the team, obviously. I'm sorry.".
"Sure and don't worry," I respond.
We go downstairs to meet the team. I'm a little bit excited to get to know the others, but it'll turn out good for sure.

As we join the room everyone starts greeting us. "So, Y/n this is our team. Sam our wingman, literally. Then Peter our new recruit and also youngest, Scott our ant and Maria our-". "No, you're kidding!", I speak up. This can't be true. This isn't her. No. It can't be. She's dead, isn't she? For seven fucking years!
"Y/n...", she says. "Don't you dare talk to me or say my name!", my voice gets louder.
Natasha puts her hand on my back to calm me but I shake her off. I don't want to calm down now.
I see that everyone takes a step back except for Maria.
"Please let me explain, Y/n!".
"I said don't use my name! You don't deserve it!", I start yelling at her.
In the corner of my eye, I see Natasha bringing everyone outside, leaving me and Maria alone.
"Please just let me explain...".
"I fucking don't need your stupid excuses. Seven fucking years passed! I waited seven fucking years for you to text me or whatever. Seven goddamn years for you to care about me. About me, my life, my brother and Anna! And not once something came from you. Not once you visited us. Not once you just told me you're fucking alive! I thought you were dead! I thought I've lost you for good! And now you think you can just burst in here thinking I'd forgive you. Did you really think you could just come here to destroy my life again?!", I scream loudly in her face. She just stares at me trying to form any words.
"I'm sorry.", Maria starts but I interrupt her "No I am sorry, that you're not really dead!". And with that I storm out of the room slamming the door loudly.
"Y/n, wait!", Natasha shouts but I don't care. I just wanna get out of here. As fast as my legs can carry me I run outside. I don't even know where I wanna go I just wanna get away from here.

Pov Natasha

What was that? It started perfectly and out of nowhere Y/n started screaming and Maria started apologizing. I tried to give them both some space so I brought all the others out of the room but soon after Y/n sprinted outside slamming the door.
I shouted after her and tried to follow but someone grabbed my arm to hold me back. She stormed outside.
"What the fuck was that?!", I say confused and turn to Maria that has now left the room as well. "It was nothing.". What does she mean, nothing? They literally screamed so the whole tower could hear it and she says it was nothing. I'm gonna go crazy!
"That wasn't nothing, Maria! I've never seen Y/n like that so tell me the fuck what happend?!". I follow her as she walks off. "Leave it, Romanoff. It's none of your business.", Maria turns to me. "Oh yes it so is my business. Y/n is my fucking best friend and she is clearly upset by you!".
"Romanoff, leave Maria alone for a bit. You can talk with her later again.", Nick puts his hand on my shoulder. Maria turns around and leaves. I shake off the hand. "Fuck you all!", I scream.
I make my way outside as well to search Y/n. I don't know where she went but I hope she's alright.

Pov Y/n

I sit next to a tree near the park for a while until I hear someone screaming my name. "Natasha?". I turn my head as I hear the redhead talking "Gosh Y/n I've been searching you the past 10 minutes. I was worried. You scared the shit out of me. Don't ever do that again!". She's been searching for me the whole time? Wow I did not expect that after I was kinda mean to her when she tried to calm me down. "I'm sorry but I just had to get out of there for a while. I didn't mean to scare you.". She sits down beside me and puts her arm on my shoulders "Do you wanna explain what happend in there or should I just not ask?". "Uhm well. It's a bit complicated but Maria is... uhmm. Well ... she's my mom.".
"She's what?!", Nat says shocked. "Yeah uhm surprise!", I try to laugh it off but it doesn't seem to work. "I thought Anna was your mom?".
"Well she's actually just my aunt but she became my mom three years ago.". "Okay now you gotta explain everything to me cause I'm confused as fuck.".
"Okay so I grew up with my mom, Maria, and my brother in a small town but then we moved here because of her job. I first didn't know what she was doing but then when I was older she told me she was some kind of agent. When my brother and I turned 18 she asked her sister, my aunt, to take care of us since she'll have to go on missions that can be dangerous and she wanted to keep us out of it so we moved to Anna. My brother moved out some months later and I never saw him again. Neither did I saw my mom after again. No letter, no text, no note, nothing. Anna didn't get anything either so I just assumed she was dead or didn't care about us anymore. And now she just appears and thinks I forgot everything.", I've been trying to hold back my tears but as Nat hugs me I just can't do if anymore. I let them roll down my cheeks and cry myself out on her shoulders.
"Oh Y/n I had no idea. I'm so sorry.". "You don't have to be it's not your fault.". "Yeah I know but I think you both need to talk. You and Maria. I've been working with her for so long already and she had constantly been talking about her daughter. Back then I obviously didn't know it was you but still she has never stopped telling me how much she misses you and would love to see you again.". "Why has she never texted me then?", I ask looking up into her eyes. "You know, our job isn't so easy. We can't just text with families or friends. It's dangerous because as soon as someone tries to thread Maria they'll go on her family. She tried to protect you, your brother and Anna. She missed you a lot.", the woman explains. I can't belive it. This is what they all do every day? They try to avoid their families and friends to save them? I had no idea. "I am so stupid. I yelled at her and told her that I wish she was dead while she was just trying to protect me. I'm an awful daughter.".
"Hey no don't say that. You didn't know and she'll understand it if you go talk to her.".
"Maybe I should...".
Natasha nods and hugs me again.
"Let's go back to the tower then and you go talk to your mom. If you need me just let JARVIS get me.". I nod and we walk back together.

*in Y/n's room*
I'm just sitting on my bed as it knocks on my door. I assume it's Maria. "Come in I guess.".
It is as I thought and my mom was the one to knock.
"Uhm Y/n I think we should talk. I need to explain you some things.", she mumbles quietly. "I'm sorry. I overreacted. Natasha told me that you weren't able to just text me or whatever. I shouldn't have been so mean to you.".
"It's not your fault. You had all rights to hate me and I don't blame you for anything. But I want you to know that I never stopped caring or missing you. There wasn't one moment where I didn't think about you and your brother and Anna. I missed you all so much and it was tearing me apart not being able to communicate with you. I'm so sorry, Y/n.".
I walk over to her and hug her. I feel her sniffle on my shoulder so we just stay there for a while not saying a word.
"But now you gotta explain me how you landed here", she breaks the silence. "Oh well it's a funny story. I actually just accidentally bumped into Natasha at a Café 3 years ago and then we kinda met up a few times and she saved mine and Anna's life with her money and then we kinda became friends and are really close now.".
She smirks "Yeah I can see that.". "What is that supposed to mean huh?". She giggles and just answers with a quick 'nothing' as she walks off. Rude.
We go back to the others to clear the situation since I may have crashed the plan they had. "Sorry guys for all of this I didn't mean to crash the situation. Mom and I cleared everything out now so you can continue planning.".
"Mom?!", Steve and Tony scream at the same time. Natasha, Maria and I immediately start laughing all together. "Yes you idiots she's my mom!". "What and attitude, Hill", Stark raises his eyebrow. "Get over it, Stark", my mom defends me.

"So guys who wants dinner?", Wanda asks into the round. Wait the time passed that fast? It felt like 20 minutes ago it was still morning. "I'm gonna order some Pizza for us!", Tony shouts getting his phone. Wanda rolls her eyes since she loves to make food instead of getting Fastfood. She preferred a fresh meal but on the opposite Tony preferred takeaway. So takeaway it was. Stark ordered Pizza and we all sat down, for the first time including Nick Fury. He never stays or just spends time with us, he's always busy. Such a busy man.

The Pizza arrived. "Alright I assume we won't make the plans for our mission anymore today, so we'll put that at tomorrow morning at 10am. Is that good for everyone? Okay I don't really care if it's good or not because I'm the boss anyways.", Fury announces proudly with a smirk on his face.

*time skip: it's 1am now*

I walk around in a dark room. I can't see anything, I just hear someone walking. Heavy shoes coming towards me. My heartbeat starts racing and I begin to panic as something touches my arm. I flinch, trying to get rid of it but I can't move. My legs won't run.
A shot.
A scream.
Silence.
Cold metal touches my wrist.
Another shot.
Another scream.
Silence again.
Someone drags me away. I try to scream but nothing passes my lips.
A third shot.
A third scream.
Silence again.

My body is shaking as I jump out of my bed. Just another bad dream that destroyed my night.
"Are you alright?!", Natasha bawls hugging me instantly. "Yeah just another bad dream, I'm sorry-". She cuts me off "Stop apologizing and sleep again. I'll stay here for the night.".
I nod and close my eyes again while cuddling up on her chest. "Good night, Tasha". "Good night, Милый".

Another dream catches me and I go into the dreamland with the same crazy and amazing feeling as the days before.