larry oneshots (english version)

I just want to be normal

"Calm down, Lou, everything's gonna be okay. You have to breathe. Breathe with me. In-" Zay took a deep inhale, "and out..." he exhaled.

Louis did so too, tried his best to calm down his breath and heavily raising chest. He just told Zayn, probably his best friend, that he found out that he was attracted to boys and overall his bandmate and also friend Harry. Telling Zayn made everything even more real and at some point Louis just couldn't hold back anymore and started sobbing, his body shaking violently.

Zayn was not only his best friend but probably also the best person Louis could've talked about this to. He knew Zayn would understand and even if not, he would at least try. Louis felt safe with him, Zayn was like the brother he always wanted. He was protective and cared for Louis, he told him that it was fine, that it was okay, that he didn't have to worry because everything would turn out alright.

But Louis' head couldn't stop creating worst-case-scenarios where either his friends or family or the whole world didn't accept him and his sexuality, or the probably even worse scenario: Harry being disgusted by him and not wanting to be friends with Louis anymore. Louis didn't know what he'd do then. He loved Harry to bits, platonically and romantically. He wanted only the best for him and would even hide his true self forever if that meant he could keep being friends with Harry.

"Is it better now?" Zayn dragged him out of his thoughts.

"Yes, thank you. Just still feeling anxious. I want that feeling to go away, Zayn, I wanna feel normal again, I just want to be normal-"

"Shh..." Zayn pulled him into a tight embrace. "You are normal, Louis. Being gay is perfectly fine, you're not a different person, you're still our goofy loud soft Lou, okay?" He pulled back from the hug to look Louis in his teary blue eyes. "I'm here, Louis. And I'll be here for you as long as you want me to."

He gently shifted back on Louis' bed they were both laying on, leaning against the wall, positioning Louis' head in his lap and softly drying the tears on his cheeks with his thumb.

"Please stay until I'm asleep. And then a little bit more," Louis whispered.

"Okay. I'll be here when you wake up."