mizuena

chapter 4

a/n: i had more lack of motivation + school so if the next chapter is delayed you know why. hope this one is longer than the first two anyway have fun reading

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"ena are you ok?" Mizuki asked with a concerned and worried look on their face. Ena, for the most part wanted to spill everything about the negative comments on her art and break down crying, but she knew that she didn't want Mizuki to worry about her. "im fine" the girl replied. She clearly wasn't and both of them knew it. Yet Ena told them she was fine, Mizuki was not about to give up. "are you sure? you looked horrible after Mafuyu and Kanade left." Ena knew that she wasn't fine like she said she was. Her eyes started to well up slightly, but she wouldn't let herself shed a tear. "im fine" Ena replied, just trying to get Mizuki off her back. Even though Mizuki wanted to help, they weren't gonna try again, they could tell Ena won't budge. Ena made sure to compose herself before leaving the bathroom with Mizuki. 

"I'm gonna go home, i'm tired" Ena said, she really didn't wanna stay any longer. Ena trailed off and walked back to her house, which was about a 30 minute walk but she didn't care, she just didn't feel like waiting for Akito to pick her up. She twisted the freezing cold metal doorknob and  crept into the house, just in case her dad was there to yell at her. her dad wasn't there, so she just went up into her room and collapsed onto her bed with her phone, scrolling through tiktok and netflix. in what felt like an eternity she found a show that looked even somewhat interesting to watch. After what felt like 20 minutes which was actually 1.5 hours, she heard some knocking on her door. Ena paused her show and opened the door. Standing out there was her little brother telling her dinner was ready. The Shinonome siblings went downstairs and sat down at a  small wooden dining table with plates of food in front of them. Ena and Akito just ate in silence and after Ena finished she walked off back to her room and watched her show again. 

Not that Ena cared, but a certain scene in the show she was viewing reminded her of her life in the past two days. She put down her phone for the first time in hours and lied down on her bed staring into the ceiling that appeared dark grey with the lights off. After a while of letting herself drown in her own thoughts in complete silence, she heard her computer make some noise. Ena stood up and went over to check her computer, but accidentally caught her eye on her own reflection. Tears were streaming down her face. She used her hands to wipe her tears and went back to trying to shut up the noise her computer was making. The brunette haired girl spammed her computer awake, and saw that it was the nightcord call. She looked in the corner of the screen to check the time. "1:01 am" her computer said it was. It occurred to her that if her eyes were red and there were tears on her face, she would be questioned about it, so she took a second to make sure her tears couldn't be seen and that her eyes were as white as they could be before joining the call.

"Hello Enanan" Kanade said as calm as always. "hello guys" Ena said, she was caught off guard with how her voice sounded even though she was crying a couple seconds ago. Most of call was just small talk, until the topic of the newest video was brought up. when it was said Ena's heart nearly skipped a beat, because she knew she rushed her pictures for the music video and she already knew what the comments regarding her art was about. For the whole time the new music video was talked about, 99% of the talking was done by the other three members of Nightcord at 25:00. the only time Ena opened her mouth was when they started to talk about the video itself instead of the music. Mizuki noticed the look in Ena's eyes when the group talked about the video. They knew it was best to ask about it, but decided to ask another question instead. "Ena can i talk to you for a minute?" they decided to ask her. 

Ena and Mizuki left the call for a little bit and started a call in DMs. "Ena you know you can talk to me right?" They asked in concern. "yes??" ena replied, slightly confused but knew where this was gonna lead to. "are you ok?" Mizuki said, knowing that Ena was gonna say something sooner or later. "i'm fine." she said with a slightly chilling and serious tone and left the call, she really wasn't going to tell her, and as soon as she said that she pressed the "end call" button. Ena went back to the main group chat call, and as soon as mizuki processed that call they joined the call as well. 

"what did you guys talk about?" mafuyu asked, genuinely curious but she didn't realised they wouldn't have left the call if they weren't gonna talk privately. "It was nothing" Ena quickly replied. The call went on for another hour and a half until everyone said their goodbyes and left to go to sleep or something else. Ena left the call after she was left by herself, and went back to lying on her bed thinking about whatever came to her mind. 

With nothing better to do and no reason to go to sleep, Ena started playing "Untitled". 

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i'm very happy i managed to get some more done, i had a bit of lack of motivation while writing this so that's one thing, i have assignments to do and after school/weekend sports and other normal teenager things, so i'm sorry if i can't get the next chapter out soon it's most likely assignments but i will put in more effort, this one was a bit longer so that's great👍👍👍