Welcome To Hell, I Meant School.

It Was Simple, It Made Life Easier

Devin's Pov

The morning after Halloween and the days afterwards were very awkward and tense. I basically have been ignoring him for the last two weeks. He made me think he liked me then, when I wasn't looking got some. I understand that he was playing a "game" at a party, but making out with a girl in a closet for 7 minutes while you want to date one of your friends, is not acceptable. The way I see it, he didn't have to put himself in that situation, even if he was drunk. I spent all night looking for him and I never found him until that point. He didn't look for me. So how does that make me feel? Really shitty.

The last two weeks have been me going to and from school, alone. My mom has had to work a lot more than normal in order to cover some more bills so; I've been home alone. No one has forced me to eat or do anything I don't want to do. But hey, my grades are really good. I've also distanced myself from everyone around me. There's no point in getting close to anyone if all they are going to do is hurt me and leave me to pick the pieces they broke up. I've also been skipping out on my pills for the last two weeks. If no one is there to force me to take the pills, why take them? I'm fine with the way I am.

When the bell finally rang, I grabbed my stuff and began to make the walk home. Chris tried to talk to me again but I gave him the silent treatment. The walk home was longer today, due to the cold conditions and my ankle locking up and being completely unmovable. It was also made longer because the asses who think its funny to beat up people, locked me in a bathroom until almost 4 o'clock and the janitor had to led me out. It was well past 6 when I finally got home. I didn't even bother doing my homework. Going straight to bed, I crawled under the covers and slept.

The next time I woke up, it was midday almost time to go home. Fuck. I missed all my classes. Getting last nights homework done, I texted Ashley (both), Brett, and Nikki asking what today's homework was. Luckily, it was all bookwork. Getting that done, I was then left to my own devices once again. It looked nice enough out for a walk, so I put on several layers and then went on a walk.

The air was crisp and cool, something I enjoyed. Walking around, I listened to the sounds of nature and took in my environment. My walk lasted about an hour before it began to get cooler and my joints began to protest. Deciding to head back, I followed the same way I came. As I neared my house, I saw someone sitting on my porch. Unfortunately, it was too late for me to turn around and avoid going home for several more hours because the person saw me. Of ALL the possible people it had to be, it had to be Chris. Fuck my luck.

"What do you want?" I asked.

" I want to apologize. I shouldn't have gotten that wasted, I should have looked for you and I shouldn't have kissed that girl. If I could go back in time and redo everything I would, But I cant. I want to so badly. It sucks not having you around. I constantly find myself thinking about what you could possibly be doing. I miss you. If I can't have you as mine, Can we at least be friends again? I need you in my life some way or another."

"Let's go in and talk." I said as I walked passed him to the door. Following me in, I made some fresh coffee just they way he likes it. Sitting down across from him, I motioned for him to talk. He went on and on about how sorry he was, and he'd do anything to make it up to me.The more and more he went on, the more tempted I was to forgive him so he would shut up. But hey, Let's see how long he will go.