iida's Depression

5

I looked at the clock that was on my nightstand,
it was already 2:00 pm and I was still in my bed under my covers,
how pathetic it is, the representative,
the model,
one of the best in the class is here lying there in his bed thinking about how complicated his life is while others have had a much worse time,
he was seriously pathetic,
maybe he didn't deserve to be respected,
it's not like they respected him anyway,
but he no longer felt that he deserved to be called a representative.
He couldn't keep fooling himself thinking that he was really worth it,
that he was a good representative,
he couldn't go on with it, no matter what he did,
he failed again and again and again and again,
he really can't think of just one Once where he was able to solve the problems of others completely,
he just hid it under the carpet,
and again those thoughts came in another whirlwind in which he could not get out.

Because he was like that...
he only wants to help the people he cares about but he fails to do that how could he think of how he could be and surpass his brother,
to fulfill the expectations of his parents, to be able to become a hero Was he so dumb that he didn't notice all the flaws he had,
was he so caught up in compliments that they never really mattered or were really real?
Obviously he never noticed this,
he had finally opened his eyes.
He was completely useless,
he couldn't keep acting this way but he had no choice.
Other people think that he is the best role model,
that he is perfect and knows what to do even if it wasn't like that,
he had to at least pretend to be,
his The class depended on him and even if he thought this way and it was real,
the others needed him to solve their problems or stand up for them,
that was his reality and he couldn't do anything.
Iida sighed and slowly got up,
put on his glasses and flip-flops and left his room,
he really didn't care about going out like this,
he felt too tired to get ready or to worry that someone would see him like this.
he went down to the kitchen looking for at least one apple not that he was hungry to be honest but he had to eat he didn't want to pass out in the middle of class or training
He took the apple and washed it when he heard his name in the distance,
he rubbed his eyes and turned to look

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