UNBELIEVABLE

Eye Opening Realizations

**this was not how I planned for this to go ; it just happened. Don't hate.💔

** Just a short little one- shot**

With sleep being forgotten for now after those horrific and feared realistic nightmares, Serkan and Eda decided to do what they have always had trouble with, COMMUNICATE!!! They each took turns describing their dreams and discovered that each of their worst nightmares were the same; Serkan sleeping with Selin, Selin claiming pregnancy and Eda leaving for good.
Both had tears streaming down their faces as each used their thumbs to wipe them away for the other.
Serkan looked at Eda, "I felt disgusted with myself and such hate and anger thinking I betrayed you. I kept thinking if the roles were reversed I would never look back after that kind of hurt. Yet I couldn't let you. I have NEVER looked at anyone the way I look at you, with Love, Adoration, Admiration, Hope and Lust. So how could I have treated you the way that I did, is a question I ask myself every day. I knew I deserved every slap, scream, insult that everyone threw at me."
     They talked about the things that Ayfer had said to him and Serkan had to admit that he had always been an asshole to Eda. He did put what he wanted first and expected her to or forced her to accept it. He admitted that looking back he was always selfish and arrogant with her, just letting her follow behind him like a lost puppy and him taking her where he wanted and treating her as he wanted with praise on occasion to make up for the harshness and dominance. Serkan held both of Eda's hands, thumbs rubbing her knuckles in a soothing manner. He looked her in the eyes and said " looking back now, I did all of those things, I expected you to just go along with me because everyone else did. I put myself first and you were third after work. I didn't think about your feelings when others and myself were belittling you or laughing at you. I knew what Selin was doing but I sat back and did nothing to help you which meant I was supportive to her both in yours and her eyes. I guess I thought if I don't acknowledge it it will eventually stop, but it never has. I know I love you and feel things for you and when I'm with you that I have never experienced and I don't know if it's because of that fact that I don't know how to treat you or if it's just me being selfish and thinking things should go my way, I'm older, I have more experience in things than you, I have made lots of money. I know these sound mean and ridiculous but I admit that I thought them and even think them. I saw your hurt and I heard things when no one knew but I chose to remain silent. I used Selin to hurt you numerous times intentionally and not intentionally. "
    Eda just sat there listening to him openly admit to all these things and it made her heart ache. "You know Serkan, before meeting and falling in love with you I was confident in who I was and where I was going. I had my kizlar and they were always there any time I needed them, to listen and give harsh truths. When I met you, I was awestruck instantly and looked at you through rose colored glasses. The things others and even you thought and said about me took a little bit out of me every time. Looking at you silently begging for you to support me and defend me but it never happened. You made me do things and say things so that you could be with Selin, who is nothing but a lying bitch. You fooled me into humiliating myself with the things I had to endure because you made me feel guilty for embarrassing you and ruining your image. You called me a thief and told me how much you need proof to believe but in all honesty you never expected that from anyone else. You believed Selin every time over me even with proof. After all this time and all the things we have been through, I still feel that I am not me."
   They both gazed at each other and Eda spoke up, " I need to be the me I know I can be, strong and independent, pursuing my dreams and living life to its fullest. I'm not that person now" tears falling from her eyes. Serkan, tears falling as well, " I hold you back from being the Eda that can run the world. I step in front of you instead of letting you lead." Both lowered their heads, took a few deep breaths and Eda sighed " I think we have to let each other go" Serkan slowly nodded his head in agreement. Both said they wanted one another to be happy and if destiny meant for their paths to cross again they would. They hugged one another for many minutes. Serkan brushed Eda's hair off her forehead and behind her ear. Eda played with the curls at the back of Serkan's neck. They gave one another a brief kiss and Eda got up from the bed, gathered her clothes and went to the bathroom to get dressed. Serkan stood, closed his eyes and waited for Eda to emerge from the bathroom. He looked at her as she did, she seemed to stand a little taller and her dimples were on full display. This is the way he wanted to see her and wished for her to live her life this way  every day. He smiled at her, pulled her close to hug her, kissed her temple and told her to go out and conquer the world just like he knew she could. Eda smiled at him, rubbed his cheek and told him to keep being the best architect in the world. They each told the other to keep their rings and Eda walked down the stairs and opened the door to leave and turned to look at Serkan. Serkan stood at the bottom of the stairs and looked at Eda. She smiled at him, "Maybe one day we'll meet in one of the gardens I designed." He smiled back, "I'm sure we will and I'm looking forward to it." She closed the door and left. He took off his ring, kissed it and placed it against his heart. " Until then Eda Yildiz, until then."
    Eda booked a flight to Italy with a smile on her face and her heart ready to live her dream. She settled into a villa on the coast and got a job with a well known architectural firm. Eda was wel liked by all in the office, there was no relationship drama, no evil ex bitches and no belittlement and humiliation from others. Eda was a quick rising, well sought after landscape architect who traveled all over Italy. She eventually opened her own landscaping firm, "Fairy Lands", where she designed fairy tale, whimsical gardens. Men followed her and sought her attention with flowers and gifts for years, she went out with a few, had some fun times but nothing serious. She didn't want serious, even 3 years later.
    Serkan's first task was to get rid of Selin for good. He cut all ties and felt instant relief and a lighter heart. He was able to be more open with others and express himself. He hung out with Engin, Ferit and Erdem. He kept a good relationship with Melo, who still called him eniste, Ceren and even Fifi. They talked about Eda, he was aware of her whereabouts and her success over the years. He was proud of her and happy she was able to live her dream. He never regretted how they ended things, the two of them even spoke on occasion. Serkan had a short relationship with a doctor he had met while in the park with Sirius. It lasted about 2 months. Her name was Deren and they had a lot in common but not things that were important to his heart. They amicably parted ways but we're still friends.
    Neither Eda or Serkan found the connection that they had with on another. Serkan lived his life not making the same mistakes he made with Eda and Eda lived her life fulfilling her promise to her parents. Both thought of each other often especially when looking at the stars. Would their paths cross again? Could they learn from the mistakes of the past and try again? These questions were pondered by both on a regular basis.
   Eda had taken a vacation and flown to Paris for a few weeks. She loved the city, it was beautiful and romantic at every turn. She was walking one afternoon through local streets, there were people everywhere; artists, musicians, vendors with flowers and food. Eda was smiling and looking around at it all. She walked to a cafe and sat outside and ordered a latte, she was admiring the atmosphere with a dimpled smile. She looked at the window and saw the name of the cafe, Cafe du Montemarte and laughed to herself at the thought that she was walking the streets of Montemarte just like she and Serkan had talked about. She can't help but get lost in memories. She gets her phone and calls Serkan on a whim; he doesn't pick up. Eda shrugs her shoulders, takes the last drink of her latte and stands up to leave. She grabs her bag and turns to leave; she crashed into someone instantly. She staggers for a few seconds and looks up to apologize for not paying attention. "Hello Eda Yildiz, fancy meeting you here, walking the streets of Montemarte."