Rafe Cameron Imagines

🤍 - i'm hurting.

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I would like to add that if you guys are suffering with anything just know you are not alone and I promise you it will not last forever. There is so much good to come and you deserve to see it. I love you all and remember you are beautiful and should be proud of yourselves for who you are, never change for anyone and don't hide who you really are. If you ever need to talk please message me and I promise I'm not here to judge i'm here to support you all. I hope you all have a great day or had a great day.❤️
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This imagine is for an awareness for domestic abuse in relationships and substance abuse awareness. I am in no way trying to influence anything mentioned. I purely just wanted to show awareness for the following so viewers can understand the importance of keeping yourself and others safe from situations like this.

If you are going through something like this please ask for help and support and don't suffer in silence. Please understand that life is worth living and it is never to late to change and help yourself get better.

Please remember these:

• https://www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk

• https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_domestic_violence_hotlines

• https://www.wakemed.org/find-a-location/rehab-hospital/rehab-phone-numbers

• https://rehabs.com/rehab-hotline/

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Taylor - your characters name.

I'm hurting. Everything is hurting. I feel like no matter what I do, it's never enough for him. I feel exhausted constantly trying and trying just to be pushed away and left feeling worthless. I feel that not matter what, Rafe is never going to care about me. Just because he says it, doesn't mean he shows it. The constant arguing and ignoring me is just draining me out. I just feel useless.

Last night was the worst night of my life. I hadn't heard from Rafe in days so I tried to see him and see how he was doing and when I got to his house, he was just high.

Yesterday...

"Rafe?" I say as I watch him snorting coke off of the table.
"What are you doing? I thought you were clean." I feel upset and disappointed for him but there must be more to it.
"Go away Taylor." He looks back at me.
"Why?"
"Because I don't want to see you. Go away." I don't understand what I've done.
"What did I do?" He rolls his eyes then he stands up taking a drink from the glass.
"Why don't you just ever listen? I told you to go away."
"Rafe just talk to me please." The next thing I know, the glass cup smashes against the wall just behind me. I flinch and feel fear. It almost hit my head but luckily it missed.

He looks at me before he sits back down.
"What's wrong with you?" I say slightly raising my voice.
"You are Taylor. You are just there. Like why? Why are you constantly just there and in the way all the fucking time."
"Because I care about you."
"No. No you do not! You care about you and you just string me along to make yourself feel better." He says shouting. I get scared of Rafe when he's high. It's not normal I know but I love him.
"That's not true." I say holding back my tears.
"Yeah alright."
I turn around and try cleaning up the glass that's all smashed on the floor.

"What are you doing" He asks me. I don't reply I just continue to pick it up.
I hear footsteps behind me. I feel a sudden pressure on my arm and my arm getting pulled up.
"Rafe get off of me. Your hurting me." His grib on me was so tight, it was hurting. Me telling him this just made him hold on even tighter.
"Listen Taylor. Go I said. Get out of my house and get out of my life because I don't want you. Just the sight of you makes me feel sick. I hate you. I really hate you. So just get out." He says pushing me to the wall. He finally lets go and I practically run out of the door.

I get outside and the tears immediately pour from my eyes. I can't believe he did that. I never thought he would physically hurt me. I still feel the power of his hand around my arm.

What do I do now?

Present...

I'm asleep in my bed until I feel something touching my head. My eyes slowly open to reveal Rafe sat on the bed next to me. My eyes feeling sore after crying for hours and hours last night until I fell asleep. His hand is stroking my hair. He moves away and he notices I wake up.

"Hey." He almost whispers. His eyes look all red as if he had been crying or not slept. I don't reply. I just look up at him.
"Look Tay, I'm sorry. I really am sorry." I look away and look to the wall. I don't feel my body has the energy to talk right now.
"I never should have done what I did. I never should have shouted at you or touched you the way I did and I am so sorry." There silence for a while. I felt his eyes burning on me.
"You scared me." I whisper, still staring at the wall.
"I know."
"Last night it wasn't even you. Your eyes were just black and I didn't even recognise you."

He shifts a little.
"I fucked up. A lot I know. I just need you to know how sorry I am." I refuse to meet his eyes or even look at him. I can tell by the way he is speaking he's crying.
"You hurt me." I say. I feel the tears fall from my eyes.
"You really hurt me." I move a little so my face is directly facing his.
"I can't keep doing this." He looks at me.
"You keep pushing me away and further each time. I'm at the point where I don't even see you anymore. I can't live like that. I can't be with you like this." He looks down and reaches for my hand but I move away.

I pull the sleeves up on my arm revealing the bruises Rafe left on my arm after he grabbed me. He looks at them and his face looked fearful. His breath hitches. He looks back at me.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Fuck." He says getting up.
"I can't believe I hurt you like that." He says pacing. His keeps running his hand through his hair.
He leans down by the bed grabbing my hand.
"Please forgive me. I'll do anything please."
"There's nothing. We were over the second I saw you taking coke. We're just collateral damage Rafe. We can't be fixed anymore. I can't keep trying. I'm done."
"No. No Taylor please no. I need you please i'm sorry." His eyes begin to tear.

"I'm sorry Rafe. I don't want this anymore. I want you out of my life for good. I don't want to see you ever again." I say. My words are harsh I know but I can't sugar coat it anymore.
"Just please do something for me." I say. He looks. back to me.
"Anything." His thumb rubs my knuckles.
"Get clean." I tell him. He nods at me in response.
"Okay." He kisses my hand before standing up. He takes one loom back at me and he leaves.

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