Narcissistic,My God,I Love it

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"Pick up your paces!" our P.E teacher shouted which made us dragged our tired bodies more.

"Sir please we need rest, hindi na namin kaya" I said in a low voice and looked at my classmates who are like a walking zombies right now

 He wanted us to jog 5 times around the school ground at ang sweaty na namin. Thankfully I know beforehand that we're going to have P.E that's why I used  waterproof make-up so that I will not look so haggardly old after it unlike  my classmates. 

"Ayaw ko na, I give up"

I just can't do it anymore that's why I went running at the side when our teacher was not looking then found a good hiding spot and  tried to catch my breath and fixed my pretty hair.

*Cough cough* made me look at my side and there he is holding his phone again. I can't believe It's already been a month since I knew him and we are still at this level

(Aerin, You look stunningly cute right now for a meet up with him, you can do this!)

"North! Aren't you supposed to be running right now?" I asked him

"Excused" he said and showed me his bruised knees and I just went 'ohhh'

"How 'bout you? You're supposed to be there running with them" his question caught me of guard so I just  smiled at him like I don't know what his talking about

"Slacker" 

"Uyy di ahh, too much lang kase yung pinapagawa ni sir I feel like I'm gonna faint if I did more" 

(I know where this is going trying for a smooth conversation now huh, see, sooner or later he wants more quality time with me. Gosh I'm too much for this world even the school can't cater my overflowing beauty)

"Whatever you say" he said shaking his head

"Oh and can I get my favor now?" 

"Favor?" I asked

"You owe me one, right?" 

"Ahhhh right!, the notes" I said in realization 

"So what do you want me to do?" 

"Can you go buy me an ice cream? I mean you can also buy one for yourself if you want." He said it in a not so commanding tone but not also a nice tone

(Seryoso ba siya?! He's ordering me to buy an ice cream?! Ang raming lalaki ang willing na tumakbo even  to the edge of the earth for me, at ako the most beautiful person in this school and probably the most cutest too that no one can say no to me will buy an ice cream for a guy?!)

(Aerin snap out of it, baka gusto lang niya ng ice cream so that you can also buy yourself one because he can't buy you some dahil sa knees niya, Yes!That's totally it! This is all for you Aerin!)

"Why not" I said enthusiastically 

"Here" and gave me his money

The school's cafeteria is kinda far that's why it's gonna take me a while for this. 

"How much is the ice cream po ate?" I asked the lady

"35 pesos po"

I took two ice cream and paid it. 

 I was going to go back to the place where I left North when  I saw him nearby 

"You're too slow, you made me walk until here" He said in a cute frustrating way

(See, Aerin his intentions are clear now, he acts very differently when in reality he's just like all the other boys who's head over heels for you)

"It's not my fault our cafeteria is this far" I said handing him over his ice cream

I sat opposite to him in a sidewalk cement and he was just doing his thing on his phone

"Don't you have any friends?" He asked me focusing on my face 

"I have lots of them, nakikita mo naman eh" I said smiling 

"I mean like real friends?"  

"How about you? I don't see anyone around you, you just talk to the guys in our room but you're never around with them" I said still maintaining my composure

I couldn't answer his question because I already know the answer and I just can't bring myself to say it that's why I'd  thrown  him the question

"We're different, very different" He said it surely

"Really?how so?" It's a question that I'm really curious about

"I'm very comfortable at being alone and I enjoy it while you. . ."

"you dislike the idea of it"

His words really took of what was left on my thinking capacity, it made me think too deep that I forgot there was someone in front of me looking at my reaction

"made you think, didn't I?" he said and smirked

 He then stood up and started walking

"Aren't you coming?! It's time for our next class" He said still walking 

"WAIT!"

I automatically stood up when I heard those words from him and tried my best to catch up to him.

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I was in my  bedroom fidgeting on my phone when my subconscious  told me to stalk North's social media accounts which I never did when he gave me it to me.

 I know there's nothing in his IG so I went to his facebook account and all the photos in his highlight are all about his family and friends from his past school. I've seen them one by one, he had so many friends and I can see him smiling all the time in these pictures. Also his family pictures, there are videos and photos of them and they all look so close together, the Christmas, New Years, and the Birthdays they spent together were well documented. 

Seeing all this I felt a tear rolled down to my cheeks because I don't remember the last time my family was complete for an event. 

On birthdays I always celebrated it with the people working in our home while my dad and brother just send me their gifts and greetings, and on Christmas and New Year's I let the maids and driver spend time with their loved ones that's why it is just me in the big old empty house so whenever I feel sad and lonely I always go to crowded places where there is laughter and joy to fill that void in my heart.

(I wish you were still here mom)

(Kuya, Dad Don't you miss me? Because  I already miss you two so much that I don't know how long I'll last)