I'm not queer | ♡Johnnyboy♡

Pancakes and Thoughts

Ponyboy's pov

I woke up on the couch and I was confused, I fell asleep on the floor? I looked around and Johnny was no where to be seen. I sat up and stretched then I smelt the smell of chocolate chip pancakes? I walked into the kitchen and found Soda and Johnny making breakfast. "And then you just, flip!" Soda said as Johnny successfully flips a pancake.

"I did it! I did it!" Johnny said happier that I had ever seen him. "Thats great!" I said smiling. "We just finished so eat up!" Soda said setting down the plate as darry walked in. "Morning weirdos." He said walking getting another cup of coffee. I sat down next to Johnny at the dining table and pulled two pancakes onto my plate. "Hey Soda can I have some advice?" I asked. He nodded, "So there's this girl that I like and I want to confess, how do you do it? How do you get a girl to like you? You get all the girls-" a memory of last night popped into my brain at the moment, "Uh plus steve." Which made him choke on his food, "How do you do it?" I ask ignoring his reaction. 

"I dunno, they just kinda, come to me?" He says. "Thanks" I sat mildly sarcastically. "Anyways who's the girl?" Soda asks. "Cherry. I met her at the movies." I say flatly. He grins, "Buy her some flowers, broads love flowers." He says smiling. I nod and save that information in my brain. I look beside me, "You okay Johnny? You haven't said much this morning." I ask, he shoots up as if he were in a daze. "Huh? Oh uh yeah sorry just thinking." He says smiling awkwardly. I nod and go back to eating. I wonder what he's thinking about?

Johnny's POV

"I did it! I did it!" I said smiling so big it made my mouth hurt. "Thats great!" I turned around to see Ponyboy leaning against the doorway, God, somthing about the way he stood made him look so damn attractive. "We just finished, so eat up!" Soda said setting down a plate of the pancakes we had been making since 7 am. Darry walked in and greeted us with a, "Morning weirdos." And we went to make himself some coffee. 

I sat down with Ponyboy sitting next to me, he pulled two pancakes off his plate and began eating them. He seemed to like them so that made me happy. "Hey Soda, can I have some advice?" He asked. I look up now paying attention to the conversation. Soda nodded signaling Pony to keep talking. "So there's this girl I like-" that's when I stopped listening. It had felt like time had stopped and my heart had fallen into my stomach. I don't know why it upset me so much. I should be happy for Pony but I'm not. I don't know why it took this long to realize that I liked him. 

It should have been obvious from the start when he found me in the lot. The way he helped me up with his soft hands and his smile, his gorgeous, handsome smile, how did it take me this long to figure it out? Then another thought entered my head, wait does this make me gay? I mean it must be, I had never had feelings for anyone before let alone a girl. Then another thought came in, how would my parents take this? How would the gang take this? I already knew Steve, Soda, and Pony supported because of last night's incident. But what about the rest? What would Dally think? He's basically my older brother from another mother? "You okay Johnnny? You haven't said much this morning." I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at Pony. "Huh? Oh uh yeah sorry just thinking." I smiled even though I probably looked stupid trying to ignore the entire conversation I had just had with myself.

He nodded and went back to eating. I slumped down into my chair. There was no way that I had even the smallest chance of getting with him. So all I could do was be a supportive, 𝘉𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥.

Sorry that wad short, but I had someone who seemed to want a new chapter so here ya go! <3