Melodic Tales [One Shot Collections]

OneShot#2: If I Sing A Love Song

If I Sing A Love Song
by Bonnie Tyler

"Sino ka ba? Umalis ka na nga rito!" I almost cried when the girl I love pushed me away from her. "Umalis ka rito!" Kaye shrieked so I just backed off.

"Kami na po ang bahala sa kanya," one of her nurses told me as she entered the room.

I stayed outside, even though I was dying to stay beside her to comfort her. As much as I want to, I just cannot. It hurts me a lot. Seeing the girl I love suffer like this is a big nightmare. Kung hindi lang talaga sana nangyari 'to...

I wiped the tear that flew from my eyes to my cheek. I turned my back so I will not be able to see her that way.

Why does this need to happen? We're good until this happened. Bakit sa lahat, siya pa? Bakit sa lahat, ito pa?

I closed my eyes as I remember the good times we once had.

"This I promise you..." I ended my song for her and put down my acoustic guitar.

"That was nice," she complimented. "You really sing well, especially on love songs. Inspired, huh?" she teased me.

"Will you promise to be with me in the future?" I asked her for the nth time, and I am glad she still answered yes. I kissed her on her forehead. "Then, I promise to be with you, too. I will give you all you want."

"Wag mo akong i-spoil. You'll suffer, Harry." She smiled as she softly pinch me on my nose. "You know what I'll be being a brat."

I pinched her nose, too. "I will give everything just for you, Kaye. You're my everything. You deserve everything."

She leaned forward and let her forehead touch mine. "You'll never leave me. Will you?"

I shook my head. "I will never ever leave you. Kahit pa tutukan ako ng baril ng tatay mo, hinding hindi kita iiwan. Kahit pa itakwil ako ng lola ko, hinding hindi pa rin kita iiwan. If it'll be you and me against the world, then be it. We'll get through everything."

Her smile slowly vanished. "What if it'll be just you against the whole world including me?"

"Against you?" I laughed. "We'll fight forever. We'll not leave each other."

"Paano nga kung ganon?" she asked again. I know how worried she was.

I looked at her intently, making her feel my deep sincerity. "I will never ever leave you, kahit ikaw pa ang tumulak sa'kin. Well, unless kung alam kong masaya ka na talaga sa iba. I'll not forbid you to love who you love and to be with him." I stopped. "Teka. M-may i-iba ka nang gusto?"

She immediately shook her head. "It's always just you, Harry, no matter what happens."

I hugged her and kissed her forehead.

We were doing better as time passed those days. I never imagined na aabot kami sa ganito. I didn't know she had this illness. I want to get mad at her for keeping it from me, but I know it will make no sense. Lumalala na ang sakit niya. It will do no good for her. All she needs is my care, my presence, and my love.

Now, after everything, ito na kami. She doesn't remember me anymore nor the memories we created happily together. Just because of her illness, everything vanished--our dreams... ourselves together.

"Come on, hijo. You always have your choice. You can always let go of her and live your own life." That's what her parents keep on telling me. They insist me to forget about Kaye and just move forward to my own life alone. I honestly consider the thought sometime, but in the end, I always keep on holding on.

The nurse signaled me that she's already asleep so I walked back again to her room. I sat on the chair beside her bed and held her hand. With my other hand, I caressed her forehead up to her long hair.

I can't just leave Kaye. It's only her that I love. I can't live with any other woman but her. She's my only love... my only life. If life means spending everyday in a terrible situation like this with her, then I will patiently accept it and endure. I will hold on to my love and never will I give up on it. I promised Kaye. We promised each other.

For a moment, I was just staring at her. Now, I am crying silently again. If this doesn't happen, we are surely happy together living a normal life.

I tightened a bit my grip on her hand as I whispered I love you on her ears.

I didn't intend to wake her up but she woke up. I bit my lip because I know she'll start screaming again, but I was glad she didn't. It's like she's physically awake but mentally unconscious. Maybe it is a part of her illness.

I like this way, anyway. Kapag ganito kasi, nakakausap ko siya. Nasasabi ko lahat ng gusto ko... and it is like she listens and understands. With me still holding her hand, I kissed her and said I love you again.

"What do you want me to do?" I asked her. I hope she'll answer me the way she does before, but of course she doesn't. "You want me to sing? Do you want to hear my voice?"

My heart fluttered when I felt her soft hand gripped mine. She responded. I just can't stop my tears from falling. I started humming and then singing our favorite song. "If I sing you a love song, will you always remember? Will you hear it on lonely nights when I'm not around?"

I tried to sing though my crying and sobbing keep on distracting me. Even the thoughts of yesterday started to haunt me again.

"If I sing you a love song, will you hear it forever?" she sang with me just staring at her, amazed. She stopped and glared at me. "Bakit ganyan ka makatingin? Pangit ba boses ko?" She frowned like a kid.

I laughed. "No. Maganda naman. Nagulat lang ako na 'yan ang favorite song mo. Bonnie Tyler's If I Sing A Love Song talaga? That's too old for a liberated girl like you."

She pouted. "I feel the lyrics and its meaning. I love that song's. My heart's always touched."

"Then continue your song. Dali."

She started singing again. "To remind you how much I cared and how I needed you... Hey! You're laughing at me! Ang bad mo!"

I laughed as I covered and protected my chest from her punching. "Joke lang! Ang cute mo kasi kumanta, Kaye. Sorry na. Kanta ka na ulit."

Instead of singing, she just recited the lyrics of the song sincerely. "Love songs last longer than lovers ever do, so baby let me sing a love song for you. Love songs don't leave you, but lovers often do. Oh baby I'm afraid it could happen to me and you."

We both stopped when she started crying. I hugged her for comfort. "Hush. We're stronger than those love songs, baby."

That song... it really reflects us. I realized it when I knew her condition. Kaya pala paborito niya.

I stopped singing as I noticed the tears falling from Kaye's eyes. She's definitely awake and conscious--like her real self before.

"Harry..." she spoke though she's obviously having a hard time. "Just sing, please?"

I gladly oblige. I won't ever refuse at her favors. I continued singing. "If I sing you a love song," and it felt both hurtful and awesome to hear her sing with me at the next line, "let it always be with you. When the others have gone away, let it still be there."

I stopped and hugged her. Hindi ko papalagpasin 'tong ganitong oras na kilala niya at natatandaan niya ako. "We'll last, Kaye. I love you. We will last longer than those love songs... as long as you're holding on, too, like me." I kissed her softly as we both cried together in chorus.

-finished

Fail ang pagka-sad. Ajuju. Mas malungkot ako. Haha! Hihi. I am loving the song. I heard it and I thought of this. :)

Thanks for reading! There are many more to come! XOXO -Naomi ♥