𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙮𝙥𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙨𝙤𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙯𝙞𝙣𝙜 ༉‧₊ 𝙠𝙪𝙧𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣

04

kuroo's pov;

i couldn't really believe what he'd said. he didn't really talk much, and he hated talking. he probably hated making friends too, because i'd seen the way he'd rolled his eyes when i asked him to be my friend. so this was new, probably even for him.

i should probably even consider myself lucky, given that i was probably the first friend he made here. and that thought was dangerous. a little too dangerous. because the way my face became hot and the way my heart started beating rapidly at that wasn't normal.

there was nothing normal about the way he made me feel.

it was different. it wasn't like the boy crushes i had when i was fifteen. this was different. this was more. he may have been right when he said i didn't know how to ask someone out. but who was i to be blamed when i didn't even realise what i was doing in front of him? he makes me lose my composure, and i end up doing the opposite of whatever i plan on doing.

in the elevator that day, i didn't plan on confessing. at his apartment that day, i didn't plan on asking him out. and yesterday... i don't regret anything i did yesterday. i did lose my composure and said whatever was on my mind, but i didn't do anything out of the ordinary. and this may be controversial, but i feel like he deserved my honesty.

kenma wasn't like anyone else i'd ever met before. he wasn't perfect, but his imperfections made him so special and so beautiful, that in my eyes he stood out too much. in a room full of people, i could stare at him endlessly without getting distracted. and i just didn't want him to be mine. yes, that was definitely something i desired, but the need to protect him outweighed everything else.

maybe that was the reason, or maybe it was something else, but whatever it was, at this moment i was staring at him as he fell asleep peacefully in my bed.

i hesitantly brought my hand up to his forehead, and he fidgeted in his sleep, so i withdrew my hand. his face was blazing, but the good thing was that he ate and took his medicines.

i stared up at the ceiling and sighed. he'd said what i was doing wasn't how it should be done. but i didn't even know how things like these should be done. i'd never liked anyone before, or lost my composure. i'd never even dated anyone before. it wasn't like i was desperate for anyone. dozens of people had confessed to me before, and i never felt anything. but not with him. for him, i may even shamelessly admit that i was desperate.

kenma made me feel like things were different, and that feelings existed. and for once in my life, i felt like everyone else. i didn't feel stoic, my heart didn't feel cold. instead, i felt warm, and my heart fluttered at the very sight of him. i didn't know what happened next, the last thing i remember is falling asleep while staring at the ceiling.

+ + +

by the time i woke up, the bed in front of me was empty. i got up and looked around the house but still didn't find kenma anywhere. this wasn't the ideal situation to wake up to, but when i saw a small note laying on top of my phone, it became a situation i'd deliberately want to be in.

here's my number, hopefully you won't text me. thank you for the soup.

- k.

that's all it took to make my heart flutter again, as i picked up my phone and did the exact opposite of what he'd said.

kuroo;
hey:)

k 🎮;
i was hoping you wouldn't text.

kuroo;
i like to be unpredictable;)

k 🎮;
was that supposed to be flirting?

kuroo;
if you want it to be.

k 🎮;
it was bad honestly. 2/10 imo

kuroo;
:((((

k 🎮;
quadruple chin.

kuroo;
what are you up to? how's your fever?

k 🎮;
the fever's better.

k 🎮;
attending the apartment society meeting.

kuroo;
wow no one told me. i'm hurt.

k 🎮;
i wished they didn't tell me either.
they're talking about holding a
winter exclusive festival, specifically
for couples.

kuroo;
how did you survive living with
so many people older than you for
so long?

k 🎮;
good question, next question.

kuroo;
LMAOOO

kuroo;
don't worry though, i'll help you
survive now <3

k 🎮;
you should give up honestly.
you're bad at this.

kuroo;
you're noticing the way i do things.
idk man sounds like you want me or
something

k 🎮 has blocked you

and the way my heart fluttered at that too was a warning sign, which i decided to ignore. just like all the other warning signs my heart had been giving me lately.

(a/n); hey everyone!! very short update but kuroo's pov >:) also consistency is the key guys 🤟✊💪 (i don't want to give up on this book)

anyways, i was really busy today so hopefully next update would be better. stay tuned:>

stay safe and don't forget to drink water<3