Bittersweet Dreams (Sequel to Nightmares)

A Healing Mind And Body

Shizuo lowered his lips to meet mine in a gentle passionate kiss. I slowly and sloppily kissed back, the effects of my headache making me sluggish and heeding the ability to will my body to do what my brain wanted in sync with coherent thought. With my weak arms I grabbed up at him, pulling him closer. This was not enough. My body shook in tremors, the cold biting my shoulders and making me shudder. Shizuo noticed this, and flipped us over covering my back with a blanket, and letting my stomach rest against his warm body. It worked for mere seconds though, and soon the hypothermic chill of my body consumed me, once again wracking my body with tremors. I winced. Tiny pins and needles stabbed my skin over and over again giving me goosebumps. Was the air really this cold? Sure, winter had consumed all of Tokyo in it's oppressive grip, sending sleet and snow pooling to the group in great measurements, but was the air in this house this cold? Did Shizuo feel it too?

"Shi-Shizuo?" I whimpered, my own voice making the headache intensify, sending chills down my spine and giving way to a migraine that was just waiting to consume me and make me grit my teeth in discomfort. It felt like my skull was throbbing, and the pain had soon intensified to make it feel as if my brain was being ripped to shreds.

"Yes Izaya? What is it? Am I making it worse? Did I-" Shizuo started off, getting cut off by a gentle 'Shhhhhh' escaping my lips.

"Is-Is it cold in h-here? Are y-you cold-d?" My teeth chattered and I stuttered. I could feel my face heat up in frustration, and I reveled in it, letting out a sigh of pure ecstasy, but soon being greeted back with harshness of the cold that bit my nose and ears, leaving me to feel hollow and frozen once again.

Shizuo shook his head, a look of confusion on his face, "No, it's actually pretty warm in here. The heater's on. Plus, your skin is moderately hot, even lukewarm, not including your face. Your face is actually kind of frosty,"

"I'm f-freezing," I whispered, weakly pulling him closely, burying my face in the crook of his neck and soaking in his warmth. It wasn't enough. I needed to feel warmer. I needed his heat not just on my skin, but under it as well. I could feel the cold in my bones, as if it had seeped through my skin and permanently taken residence inside my soul.

Shizuo took the chance to kiss a trail from my ear to the base of my neck, surprising me, as I hadn't felt anything remotely nice in almost 24 hours. I let out a pleasure filled sigh, indicating to Shizuo that whatever he was planning to do was nice, and I wasn't totally against it. Before I could even open my mouth to voice temperature concerns to Shizuo, I felt him slip my jeans off of my frigid body, soon removing my boxers as well. The cold bit my thighs and send a cold chill throughout my body. I shot a glare up at Shizuo, frowning at his complete idiocy.

"I said I was c-cold you p-protazoan! Give me back my p-pants! Shizu-" Before I could even finish my sentence Shizuo lips were already around my length, shrouding me in a warm shudder that danced its way up my spine, finally settling on heating my face in confusion, but arousal all at once. What was he doing? "Shizu-ahhh, we have other p-problem-mmhh-s at hand," I couldn't keep my moans at bay, as Shizuo knew exactly what to do to unravel me right beneath him.

I entangled my frigid fingers into his golden locks, tightly snagging a grip onto a certain section of hair. Unconsciously my hips bucked, letting me feel the full sensation of his mouth and tongue working away on my lower half. I was livid that he had exposed the skin that was so exceptionally cold, but the overwhelming pleasure that surged through my body at this very second, was slowly warming my skin, though still, it was not enough. I needed more. I needed to feel that heat everywhere. I needed to feel it radiate throughout my entire body; inside and out.

Shizuo kissed a trail up my body, each kiss leaving a burst of warmth in its wake. His face met mine in a loving kiss, until I broke free, grabbing his face in mine.

"More Shizuo. . . n-not enough. . . still cold. . " I whispered, letting my shivers take over. The pain in my skull was beginning to take shape again, making a stray tear slide down my cheek, and ultimately make its way on Shizuo's arm.

Shizuo looked so pained that I swear I could've broken down right then and there in a fit of both rage and sadness. I was infuriated that I was so weak, that Shizuo needed to stress himself out this way. It killed me inside, awakening a small field of emotions I hadn't felt in a while. Who was I anymore? What was I anymore?

Before my self destructive thoughts could completely consume me, I felt Shizuo slowly slide into me, sending a jolt of pain to ripple up my spine and settle in my brain, making my back involuntarily arch, letting a moan escape from my throat. As he continued to thrust my body became warmer and warmer, dissipating the ice cold chills that had taken residence under my skin and all throughout my body.

If I was cold before, it felt now like every cell in my body was set aflame. Beads of sweat trickled down my face, leaving a salty tang on my tongue. As material as it sounded, I loved this. I loved when Shizuo looked at me, captivated by my flawed pale body. The way he dominated me in a way I would let no one else. Especially the way he slipped past all mental barriers I had constructed to keep myself from hurting as much as I had tonight.

The further we went, the better I felt until orgasm ripple through me, sending me over the edge.

Shizuo looked at me, solace and calidity dripping off of him. I smiled up at him, planting a small kiss on his lips. He smiled at me whispering, " Is it too much to ask for me to cuddle you to sleep?"

I wrapped my arms around his pulling him toward me. "That's exactly what I was thinking,"

So that's what we did. I buried myself into the warmth of Shizuo, letting sleep take me away until sweet serenity was all the warmed the cold chill that had consumed my bones.