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The Aftermath. 6

TRIGGERS

•MENTIONED SA
•SELF-BLAME
•UNHEALTHY JUSTIFICATIONS
•SH MENTION

Baku's POV

I didn't really sleep, but by the time Denki woke up, I pretended to be asleep. He went to the bathroom, and I took that opportunity to get up and get dressed.

I put on my pants, but he cut my shirt, so I just grabbed one of his hoodied and decided to leave.
I didn't want him to ask me later why I left, so when I walked out of the front door, I texted him and said my mom wanted me back home before 10 am. Which was a lie. I know lying is bad. And you especially shouldn't lie to your partner.

But I really needed some time to think.

I went back over to the park we were at before we ran to his house in the rain.

The ground was muddy and wet, so I just decided to take my shoes off, I didn't want her to get mad at me for ruining the nicest shoes I have, according to her. Apparently, all of my other shoes are trashy in her opinion.

I took off my socks too because, wet and muddy socks. No. Absolutely not.

I walked in the wet grass and went back to the tiny lake, where we looked at the ducks, fish, and frogs before it started to rain.

I sat down on my legs, trying not to get my pants dirty from the ground.
I sat, and I tried to think.
Was it consensual? Does that even matter?

How do I feel about it?

.....

I don't really know how I feel about it.

I mean, he is my boyfriend. I should want to do anything to make him happy. He has done so much for me. He was there for me when I needed someone the most.
He was there for me when he didn't need to be.

So, obviously, he does love me. He cares about me. He wouldn't intentionally try and hurt me.

But, no matter how many times I tell myself that, I still feel weird about it.

But that settles it. What happened was fine, I could probably talk to him and say I would prefer more pleasure than pain, but that's a conversation for later.

I don't need to come home until later on in the day, so I might as well sit here for a bit and then try and find something else to do.

Time skip

I've been sitting here for about an hour. I've been mostly looking at the fish, the trees, all that nature shit. It is really pretty. But it's kind of different now that I'm alone, with my thoughts. Nobody else to drown out the noises of everything around.

The wind against the leaves and branches.
The buzzing noises from the bugs and crickets.

Just everything that I wouldn't normally notice unless I was trying to listen for it.

But now that I'm alone, it feels nice, but also kind of unsettling.

I look up at the sky. It's not really that early in the morning anymore, but there is still this pinkish red tint in part of the sky.

"It's beautiful. Right?"

I jump at the sudden voice.
I turn around to see a boy with an emotionless expression, with split white and red hair.

And he looks like he has a nasty scar on the red side.
I wonder what happened.

I realize I've been staring at him for longer than socially exeptable, so I turn away and muster out a reply.