Begin Again

Chapter 10

Zhan continued to walk around the room getting his items and packing them in his bag. "I'm surprised you didn't come in here demanding why I was at the hotel. Did he not tell you I met him today? Did he not go and tell you that I was there talking to Haikuan? Have you seen Haikuan lately? He aged so well. Do you think it's too late? Wouldn't it be great to be the one that fucked both brothers?"

Xuan began to chase him around the room. It was all a game now for Zhan. A game he had to win. Zhan quickly took out his phone and dialed Yibo's number while running around the room. Xuan didn't see him do that before grabbing him and slamming him hard against the dresser making several items topple over. "What the fuck, Zhan?" Zhan's phone fell to the ground forgotten.

"Don't fucking touch me. I already said I'm leaving. "I'll get Yibo to come pick me up and take me to his house, and then we can fuck whenever we want as many times as we want without consequence," he yelled hoping he was listening on the other end of the line.

"Zhan... stop."

"He loves how shameless I can be. You hate that I love to talk dirty and tell you how I want it, well you know what? He loves it. He also loves all that extra weight you said I've gained because he says it went to all the right places he loves to grab and bite."

Xuan pushed him against the wall with a loud thud. He grabbed the lower part of Zhan's face tightly. Zhan felt the pressure on his teeth, but he didn't dare show his pain. Instead he chuckled.

"You can bring your lover here. This is no longer our home. You made that very clear. I'll just get some clothes and leave. I won't take anything. You can return all the stuff from the nursery as well. Yibo can give her what she needs." Zhan knew this would push his husband over the edge, but he couldn't control his arrogance and his lies. He was not going to let the man he loves the most see his pain. He freed himself from his husband's grip and using only his index finger he teasingly pushed him away from his body.

"You're not going anywhere," Xuan said with clenched teeth. "You're my husband. This is our home. And that child is mine. No one else's."

"You can go make your own with your lover. She's mine. My blood runs through her veins , not yours. While you were fucking him I was the one who took the initiative to create her... not you. You don't deserve her at all."

"What and he does? He's a fucking idiot kid. Are you out of your mind? Is this your midlife crisis? You turn 30 and all of a sudden all your morals go out the door? He's just a kid who only wants you for your ass."

"Fuck off and let me go."

He was slammed once again against the wall. Xuan put his forearm across Zhan's chest holding him down and every time Zhan tried to get free he'd slam him again. "You're not fucking leaving," Xuan yelled through clenched teeth.

Zhan rolled his eyes and used all his might to push him off, but Xuan leaned in and kissed his husband with such a force it shocked him, and it shocked Zhan when he instinctively kissed back. They kissed and then Zhan pulled away and wiped his mouth.

"Yeah... kiss me... can you taste him? Can you taste Yibo.. my BoBo?"

Xuan quickly turned him around and pulled down his husband's jeans and boxers. "No one can give it to you like I can... some teenager with no experience. I know what you like and how you like it. I know exactly what points to hit to make you cum."

"What? Are you going to rape me now?"

"You're my husband," he whispered into Zhan's ear and began to kiss his neck hungrily.

"You can try, but it won't feel as good. Yibo is huge and can reach my spot without even having to force himself," he yelled.

Xuan was losing this battle. He turned Zhan back around and gently caressed the side of his face, "Tell me it's all a lie. I know you're mad. I'll stop. I'll never see him again. Just tell me you're lying," he said as tears formed in his eyes.

Zhan laughed. "Come on Xuan... be a man. You're a man right? I didn't marry a fucking woman. " He mocked him with his own words.

SMACK

The slap was so loud it echoed through the hallway. It rattled the inside of Zhan's head. He lost his train of thought. His vision went black for a few seconds. Zhan's lip began to bleed and Xuan's red hand marked Zhan's now red cheek. Zhan began to laugh hysterically. He laughed like a maniac until eventually the laugh turned to sobs and the floodgates that were holding the tears with all their might suddenly gave out. His shoulders bounced up and down as he tried to control his cries.

"I...," Xuan wasn't sure what to do next. He wanted to comfort his husband, yet he wanted to slap him again. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"Why... 10 years. I gave you 10 years of my life... I gave you everything. Gave up my dream when you asked me to. I gave up all my friends for you. Haikuan, Zhuocheng, Yu Bin. I gave them all up for you. I did everything... Why did you do this to me? Was I not enough?"

Xuan remained silent.

"I asked to be taken several times to those clubs and bars and you take him like nothing. I begged you to go to a Halloween party and dress up like my favorite characters from The Untamed and you said you couldn't go because you'd be busy at work, but you went with him. You even wore the costume I had told you I wanted us to wear."

"I..."

"You don't even want to cuddle. That's all I want. Just love me and hold me like you used to. You stopped making love to me. You fuck me, but you don't show me love. Why can't you do that with me? Why him?" Zhan began to hit Xuan's chest with his fists. "Why when we were about to start our family? I have waited for this for many years waiting for you to finally accept having a baby and then you do this. You missed the appointment on purpose, didn't you? Huh? You never wanted to start a family with me did you?"

"I didn't want a baby... but... I didn't want to deny that to you. I love you and wanted to make you happy. But now... I love her more than anything. Our little Yanli."

"6 years ago... Xuan... 6 years ago... was Haikuan telling me the truth?"

Suddenly there was a banging on the door. Zhan took the distraction to push Xuan off him, pick up his pants and run to the door. Yibo was there out of breath holding his phone to his ear. He was still on the call with Zhan during the whole ordeal.

Yibo walked into the home heading straight for Xuan. "Don't fucking touch him again. Do you fucking hear me? Keep your fucking dirty hands off. He's mine now." He grabbed his collar and slammed him against the wall. "Do you fucking hear me?"

Xuan pushed him off and fixed his shirt. "You're just a fucking kid. What the fuck do you know about adult problems. Get the fuck out of here."

Yibo laughed. "Don't worry. We will." Yibo turned to Zhan, "Baby.... Put on your shoes let's go," he said walking back to Zhan. Yibo removed his leather jacket and placed it on Zhan's shoulders.

Overwhelmed with fury, Xuan refused to let his husband and his lover simply walk away. In a fit of rage, he grabbed Wang Yibo by the collar, forcefully throwing him to the ground. Swiftly, he delivered a powerful punch to Wang Yibo's face. In retaliation, Wang Yibo unleashed a barrage of blows until Zhan intervened, pulling him away from his husband.

"Please let's just go," Zhan said with his voice filled with a mix of urgency and determination. He reached out and firmly clasped Yibo's hand, their connection instantly calming Yibo's agitated state, as if a wave of tranquility washed over him.

Both Yibo and Zhan walked out of that apartment together. When they reached the outside of the building Yibo pulled Zhan closer to him. Zhan's head was buried in his chest. Yibo could feel his hot breath on his chest and the wetness of the tears on his shirt.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know who else to call. I knew you'd come right away."