Buck and/or Eddie || 9-1-1 one shots

Why?

Buck just found out abt Daniel

10/12/23

I can't
I can't live a life that I shouldn't even have to begin with
I failed to do the one thing I was literally made to do
I failed to save Daniel, the original brother
I don't want this life
I'm miserable
I'm sorry
I want to say that I'm so sorry to the 118 and to Maddie
I love you all

The 118 was the closest thing to an actual healthy loving family

Maddie, I love you so much, you are the best sister I could ever ask for. I know you have a habit of blaming yourself but the only people to blame are our parents and I

Eddie, you are the best ever friend I can have and please tell Christopher a different story of how I died, maybe something hero like. I love you two so much

Bobby, you were more of a dad to me than my real one.
You and Athena were like my parents,
You two were the only ones who actually believed in me
But I'm sorry I'm doing this but I just can't anymore

I'm sorry to everyone and especially for whoever finds me

-Buck

^The note that was sitting next to the tub

Buck POV:

Ever since I found out about Daniel, the world has felt off, it doesn't look as bright and interesting, it's not as beautiful, it's not something I feel like I would miss

I mean, imagine the reason you were made was to save your brother and you didn't even do that correctly.

When I was younger, I was traveling a lot and finding cool jobs, at one point I learned how to act really well so no one noticed how i was acting so tonight, I'm ending it

I know that (well I would hope at least I guess) that they will feel sad but they will get over it, I can't be here, alive, I can't enjoy anything anymore, I'm miserable

When I came home tonight, I ate a taco, my favorite kind of my favorite food, and went to the bathroom, I started writing my note while the tub was filling up

As I was getting in, I got a scratch from something(idk what) and my arm started bleeding all over the place but I didn't care, I payed down into the water and I counted down until I felt nothing and everything went black

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-next morning-

Maddie POV:

Buck and I have a tradition, sometimes we would just randomly show up to each others houses as a surprise. I came early in the morning when I know he's out running so that he doesn't here me come in. I waited for about half an hour but then I had to go to the bathroom so I went upstairs only to find my little brother's lifeless body laying in a tub filled with blood. Before I could react (like cry or scream), I rushed and tried to get him out of the tub while calling 911.

Dispatch: 911 what's your emergency

Maddie: Josh!

Dispatch(Josh) Maddie!! What happened?!?

Maddie: it's Buck, he killed himself, there's not not breathing and he's got no pulse, I'm doing cpr

Josh: ok, I'm sending an ambulance

Maddie: make sure it's not the 118

Josh: ok, what happened

Maddie: idk, I came to his place to surprise him and I though he was out on a run so I went to the bathroom and I found him in the tub. The water is red but he has a scratch on his arm. Oh my god-