Home Is Always You

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Jisoo led Roseanne to the back veranda where the others could not hear them. The latter was nervous, because by the tone of the older's voice, what they're going to talk about is not something light and pleasant.

So she braces herself.

"I've told you already, Rosie", Jisoo started once they're outside, "Don't do anything that'll trigger Jennie. That was my only condition when I invited you here."

Roseanne was a little confused with the sudden outburst, although she has an idea on what the other girl was talking about.

"Wha—"

"I saw you last night."

That was enough to confirm the pink-haired's thought, and was enough to make her mum. She hung her head low, something she's been doing a lot since she came to the villa.

"I was going to get myself a glass of water", the older continued, "When I heard you and Jennie talking."

"Chu, I didn't mean to—"

She was once again cut off by Jisoo.

"I thought we've made it clear huh, Rosie? I thought you've promised me that you're going to fix things and not ruin them even more."

Roseanne should've known that things wouldn't be so easy when she decided to invite herself to this party. Approaching Jennie, talking to her, making her acknowledge her presence. She should've known how wretching and emotionally tormenting it is to try and squeeze herself back to the lives of the people she has inconsiderately left.

But she's stubborn like that.

"Jennie's been doing fine. But, you knew she still gets anxious from time to time", Jisoo continued when the younger refused to speak, "What do you think was the reason she carelessly ran down to the ocean in the middle of a storm?"

The pink-haired flails her arms, "I knew it had something to do with what I've said last night—"

"Oh well, it's good that you at least knew that", the older proceeded to cut her off, "But I've told you many times that all we want from you is an answer. Why must you push yourself to her?"

"I wanted to explain to her. I was about to explain", the singer defended.

"Then why didn't you?"

Biting on her bottom lip, Roseanne clenches her fist in frustration. The girl has a point. But she was too much of a coward.

"You had the chance. If you just straight up told her, she would've listened to you."

"I'm sorry."

"For fuck's sake, Roseanne, until when will we hear those empty apologies??"

The pink-haired heard the little, almost inaudible, crack in Jisoo's voice after the girl said that. She realized they're the ones who are more frustrated about the situation than she is. She's been making them anxious. And the older girl was right. Instead of fixing things, she's ruining them even more.

"Why can't you tell us...tell me?", Jisoo clenches her jaw, trying not to break, "Right here and now. Tell me."

Roseanne looked up at her friend and saw hurt in her eyes. Exactly. They've been giving her a chance to explain and defend herself. Why can't she?

"Because I'm ashamed", she replied, averting her gaze once more, "Because it was stupid. I was stupid."

"I thought you knew us. After all these years, I thought you already knew us", the older girl threw her head back, "I thought you knew that no matter how unreasonable it was, we'll hear you out."