for i cant help falling in love with you || mizurui

unspoken feelings

a year ago, mizuki akiyama would never find themselves in a situation like this.

it all leads back to that rooftop where they met rui kamishiro, a boy who would unexpectedly change their lives, for better or for worse.

the boy was a year older than them, although it didnt make any difference. their bond was still strong as it can get for two "strangers" sharing similar situations. both of them found it quite ironic how they could make a friendship out of something so contrasting like solitude.

suddenly, mizukis life turned brigther. although it wasnt much, rui truly had a positive effect on their lives. they would meet up on the rooftop daily and talk shit about their bullies, it was a way to unwind their feelings with the person they most trusted.

it had been months since they met, and ruis graduation was nearing, leaving mizuki all alone for the next excruciating school year. rui knew all too well that he couldnt move on without voicing out his feelings for his "best friend."

"yo, mizuki. can i tell you something?"

mizuki was already waiting for them on the rooftop, expecting them to bond over solitude and random things as usual.

"hm? sounds serious, what is it?" the pink haired individual uttered out, having no idea what rui was gonna say next.

rui clenched his fists on his chest, its almost as he was protecting something so fragile such as his heart.

"i know im graduating soon, so i might as well say how i feel about you.. mizuki, i like you. i admire your sense in fashion. i admire how brave you are... still having the strength to stay despite of all the mean things people say to you. i dont know why youre so nice to me, but i wouldnt ask for anyone other than you. youre an amazing person, and i like you, mizuki akiyama."

rui was waiting for a response for his heartfelt confession, but nothing came out. his fists clenching even more than before if that was even possible.

a choked laugh came out of mizuki, as if they were crying. they couldnt make eye contact for some stupid reason.

"huh..? why are you laughing..? if you dont like me, just say it directly, im begging you." rui said on the verge of tears.

"you.. like me? what a big joke!" tears were welling out of mizukis eyes

"why the hell would someone like you like me..? thats impossible... stop it, stop getting my hopes up!"

mizuki ran away crying, their heart was too weak to reciprocate his feelings.

"im sorry.. you deserve better than me." they whispered, although rui was still able to hear it.

rui felt the world die beneath him. he didnt cry at all.
but there was this excruciating pain in his chest, like he was gonna throw up his heart. maybe they were better off as friends? was he to be blamed for ruining their friendship?

it was the day of ruis graduation, and mizuki was moving up a grade. although they both havent recovered from that situation a week ago, rui was handling it well and trying to get over it. on the other hand, mizuki was struggling and it was evident that their eyes were sore from crying almost everyday.

they both moved up a grade, but as rui had a new beggining, mizukis heart was still stuck in the past.