Turn on the lights - Remus lupin comfort fic

Chapter 7

Autumn days turned into winter very quickly this year and before Willa could notice it was the beginning of December. The past 3 months had been agonising torture for her having to plaster a smile across her face and stay normal so nobody would notice what was going on, especially Professor Lupin. They had rarely spoken since he had found her lying bare armed by the lake, just the occasional exchange of smiles and he checked in every now and then. Sirius Black having been sighted in the castle seemed to keep everyone pretty distracted, Willa never thought she'd be grateful to have a murderous raving lunatic in her school but for some strange reason she was.

Her self harming had grown worse over the past months, she had to go deeper for it to work now, her arms and now her thighs had never looked in such a state however after a bit of reading in the library she had learnt to do a glamour charm so that it would be hidden in the event that her sleeves had to be rolled up. It was all working out so perfectly and nobody would ever find out. Although she was becoming so exhausted trying to keep the mask up the whole time. It was now only a few weeks before Christmas everyone was buzzing and all Willa felt was a sinking emptiness. She didn't dare go to Hogsmeade for fear of going past the dementors who might gut the remaining life she had left in her.

Potions with professor Snape was particularly bad this year he seemed to have a stronger hatred than ever against the Gryffindor students and of course they had to share potions with the Slytherins. Draco Malfoy still hadn't shut up about being 'attacked' by the Hippogriff 'it was months ago get a grip for god sake you slimy grease ball' . This lesson however had been particularly bad she was partners with Pansy Parkinson, she had never met such a stuck up bitch in all her life. What's worse was Snape loved her to teach so anything that went wrong was without fail Willa's fault. This day they were concocting a confusing potion, Pansy was particularly nasty this day and seemed to enjoy messing up the potion for the sake of having Willa punished. "God would you just take a break from being a total twat for 5 minutes and do it properly" Willa snapped at the pug faced girl. Pansy scowled and tossed her hands up at Willa knocking the cauldron in the process spilling it all over Willas uniform. God it stung. It felt like fire pouring over her open wounds. "For Merlin's sake what have you poured that down yourself for girl, perhaps longbottom might not be the least intelligent being in my class after all" Willa was fighting tears now the pain was becoming unbearable. Burning had turned into a tearing feeling it felt as though each of the scabby cuts were opening up and bleeding "please professor may I go" her breathing had heightened. Snape simply gave a disapproving glare and waved the door open with a flick of his wand.

She grabbed the majority of her things and sprinted down the hallway. She could feel blood seeping through her shirt and soaking the jumper she was wearing every one of her cuts had opened and were bleeding profusely. She dove into the girls bathrooms and ripped off her clothes. She stood over the sink in just her bra and skirt furiously cupping water over herself in an attempt to get rid of the potions. The cuts wouldn't stop bleeding though. What bloody potion had Pansy and her idiotic carelessness managed to conjure up because Willa had never felt pain like it. 10 minutes passed and finally the bleeding was slowing. Willa couldn't help but feel light headed and a little sick. She lowered herself down onto the cold stone floor. It was clean. It was always clean thanks to the house elves. As she went to stand up the bell rang. That was all she heard before collapsing involuntarily onto the hard stone and passed out.