Fan Boy (bill kaulitz x male reader)

This Isnt Goodbye

As I watched tokio hotel perform I felt like it was a dream. Like I was watching from afar like a crazed fan. I could feel my heart racing as they played my favorite songs from the Scream album. They played almost the whole album when the music died down. Then I felt my heart drop a bit as they stopped and started to talk to the crowd

"I would like to introduce one of my good friends today. Everyone give it up for [name]!" Bill said, turning to me as the stage manager pushed me out into the stage as the crowd screamed. Most of the screams were out of envy I could feel my face heat up as I slowly walked onto the scene. Georg patted my shoulder before I continued to walk to Bill. He smiled while taking my hand and then engulfed me in a hug before he started talking into the microphone again.

"This is one of my best friends [name] he is very sweet and I have been grateful to be able to hang out with him these past few days and be able to call and text him but...im sorry [name] but I do have other places to go for the tour and this will be the last day we will see each other. This is why I took you here today so you can have a fun day with me."

I turned to look at Bill with shock painted all over my face. I could bill fighting off tears as we made eye contact. "So I've saved the best for last...for you." Bill said taking a deep breath before continuing

Bill then let go of me as he then faced the crowd and started to talk to them. "So let's play Monsoon for my very good friend [name]!" Bill then said starting to the music as everyone started to sing along

I couldn't fight off my tears realizing it might be months before I see Bill again and it will be hard texting him or calling since he is going to be so busy.

As we get to the end of the song Bill's face was covered in tears as were mine. And as the song finally ends Bill pulls me in tightly hugging me as if I was the one leaving.

I placed my face in the crook of his neck letting my tears run freely. Is this how is going to say goodbye? I don't want say it. At least not now.

I held on tight as the lights went crazy as well as the crowd. I could feel bills chest rise up and down quick as I some how hear his sobs.

I pull away from the long hug and see bills face, covered in tears as his face distorts to a sad face. A face I didn't know would break my heart to look at. I hugged him once last time before the stage lights went off and people started to leave.

I think we stayed there for at least a few more minutes before bill pulled away his face still wet with fresh tears. "Im sorry." Bill said his voice all cracked and wobbly

"Oh no don't be...hey listen...I'll miss the shit out of you but listen...I'll see you again I promise." I said my voice wobbly. But speaking only made the tears run.

We slowly moved back to the exit of the stage with my arm around his waist and his arm around my shoulder.

His face still a bit wet Tom walked over to bill and me and asked up if we were okay. I still couldn't speak. I felt like if I did I would cry again. So I just nodded

Bill and Tom then left to go get everything ready for them to leave and gustav came over to me.

"Listen. I know that must have been a lot for you. Don't tell bill I said this but he thinks more of you then you think." Gustav said sounding like a dad trying to cheer me up

"Really?" I said wiping the last few tears off my cheeks

"Why do you think he did this? He wanted you have a good last day with him. I mean if he didn't care I don't he would have told you anything but that's just me." Gustav said before giving me a quick hug and smiling at me before walking off into the outside where fans started to scream and asking for autographs and such

It was now just me,bill,Tom, and Georg. Georg didn't really say anything to me. He just smiling and nodded before walking to the bus and being bombarded with autographs and pictures

I just stood there. Trying to help myself understand that it will be fine. That I'll still be able talk to bill. Just not as much... and I need to stop making it a big deal since we've only known eachother for a few days...

Tom then walked out of the dressing room carrying his bag and walked over to me. He placed a hand on my shoulder looking at me with such a sincere look. "You'll see us very soon. I promise." Tom said before pulling me into a hug. This is nice.

He then left me with a smile before walking out the same crowd even getting a bra thrown at him. The that person to leave was bill. We left together. As we left together people took many pictures and fans wanted to see and talk to him. As we all got on the bus it was silent

A very uncomfortable silence. When we finally got to my house I looked back one last time atleast for a while. "Goodbye...I can't wait to see you guys again." The doors then opened as started to walk to my house

I heard the doors open again and I saw Georg holding something in his hand. He threw it at me. I caught it to realize it was one of his necklaces. "Thank you!" I said smiling at him

"It's just a remember me by." Georg said before walking back on the bus as it then started. I closed the door to my house and saw my mom on the couch.

"Hey baby how was it hanging out with your friends.?" She said before looking up at me to see I was now crying again

She hopped up from the couch to hug me. "Oh no what happened? Are you okay?" My mom said squeezing me tight.

"Yeah mom I'm fine I guess I'm just tired."