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20📚|Flash backs

Another terrible night. No sleep, packed with assignments and stress, for some reason everything that I've been trying to forget came back ten fold.

After that little outburst with Cillian my mind hasn't been here, I've been practically out of it and lost to the world.

I grabbed my head and squeezed my eyes shut as the professor's voice began to drown out.

These voices and memories of everything that's been happening to me came out of nowhere and is making me feel like a mad person.

I wouldn't be doing you a favor now would I?

You've always been a selfish bitch!

Celine! Call the police. Now! Don't just stand there, your brothers dying!!

The same pounding headache from last night, set in with a purpose to drive me nuts and developed in the forefront of my brain, my eyes began to get blurry and my chest heaved.

I tried to look around but everything seems so magnified and my breathing felt constricted, I squeezed my fingers into the palm of my hands and tried to will myself to snap out of it.

Oh no. I'm having a panic attack.

I can't take you home tonight babe, the boys called, I'm sorry.

Sweat trickled down the side of my face and the headache increased.

I felt a hand clamp down on top of my mine and without thinking I flinched away, knocking the book off the desk and grabbing the attention of the class, I could feel the eyes.

"Celine?" I heard Alaina's concerned voice but I couldn't see her, I began to hyperventilate and my sweater felt extra hot and constricted for some reason.

"Sir. I think she needs to see the nurse" Alaina suggested.

"I'm sure she's fine Ms. Ramirez. Celine?" The professors condescending voice came.

"She's not fine you twig! She's having a panic attack!" Stop. There voices were getting so loud, I felt myself almost on the verge of tumbling over but felt a pair of hands holding me up.

"Sir!"

"Fine.. get her to the nurse" he gritted. I felt myself being hoisted up, hand thrown over a shoulder I presume to be Alaina's and felt my feet move on their own accord.

"You'll be fine babe. Just breath. In through your nose and out through your mouth" I followed her command and tried but it felt like my throat was being clogged by something.

Get off me!

Shhh. I know you like it Celine, just keep quiet, don't wake up mom and dad and this will be easier for both of us.

No, not this again.

I felt my feet give way from underneath me, my body hit a hard surface and everything was going black, Alaina was shouting but her voice sounded far away this time, I felt myself being submerged into a body of water and I was finally able to open my eyes.

I looked around.

Nothing. Just pitch black darkness and dread as water began to fill my lungs.

I was drowning and the voices began to get louder, I tried to scream but they wouldn't go away, they were mocking, filed with hatred and despair.

You ruined this family..

I will never love you Celine. You took everything away from me.

Why did he have to die and not you!

Rachel! That's enough!

Can't you see that she's the reason everything has gone to shits!.