How Could You Love Me?

💛Bonus Chapter💚

Pov: Urogi

I was sneaking out to go to this party that I didn't really wanna go to; but I knew I couldn't be in that house any longer. Just shut the fuck up.. just shut it..! I tried to push out the annoying anger bubbling inside of me, but nothing worked.
  I continued to walk this fucking path alone, in the darkness, cold. I searched for this house that seemed to vanish every time I got closer to where it said it'd be. Eventually I gave up. I wondered into an empty park and sat on the swings.. alone.

  "What are you doing..?" I heard a male voice coming from behind me; around my age. I turn back, looking at this boy who is my age and scoffed. I looked back in front of me and said,
  "Nothing important," I then heard the swing next to me move. I heard the chains, they were rusty.
  "Were you also going to that party..?"
  "Yeah,"
  "Yeah... it's pretty loud for my liking." I didn't say anything. Not like I wanted to, but his voice kept me going.
  "Heh," I laughed annoyed, "and what's a pretty boy like you doing at a party like that?" I started mocking him.
  "I just wanted to know what a party felt like.. getting drunk, getting high.. but the alcohol tastes gross, and the dance floor feels sticky and wet.. I don't see how people enjoy that.." I nodded, but I'm sure he didn't see that.
  "So," I kicked some pebbles that were on the ground. "You never tried drugs?"
  "No,"
  "Want to?" There was a long pause before he agreed,

  "S-so... are you sure.. it won't, like... kill me?"
  "I can tell this is your first time," I continued to tease him as I pulled out some weed from my bag.  "But no, it won't. Maybe take too much, then yeah. But weed doesn't kill you, it calms you. Well, for me it does.." He watched as I started to roll it up,
  "Wha.. how do you feel when you take it..?" I actually, for the first time this night, looked at him more clearly. I focused on his eyes, the way his hair was slit back. And I knew, just from that, he was faking his personality. His hair looked so out of place, and it seemed he was trying to be cool or something.
  "I feel happy," I quickly said, realizing I was staring at him. "But it's different for everyone. Some get angry, or sad, or whatever.. I feel happy." I heard him hum, I guess he was agreeing to what I said. "Anyway, it's done." We were sitting underneath the playground slide, the moon was out, and the night was quiet. Too quiet. But this small breeze hitting my face as I took in a deep breath, letting in the drug I knew would keep me sane helped. I then handed him it, smirking,  "Want it, pretty boy?" He hesitated,
  "Uh.. sure.. yes, please" He had on some pants and this cute big sweater that was a light green. It has some stitches on his sleeve that looked like crap, so maybe he let his friends do it or something. I didn't really think about if he needed help to do it, because I was snapped out of my mind when I heard him cough.
  "Haha.. here, you gotta do this." I showed him how to do it, and he looked embarrassed.
  "S-sorry.. this is so embarrassing.." I laughed while patting his shoulder.
  "It's fine! You're fine! Just try again, I'll show you if you'd like?" He nodded softly before handing it back to me. "Okay, just watch." And he did. I once again took in this heaven on a paper stick and felt at ease. After a few tries he got it down.

We went through a lot of weed.

  "A-and I said.. what the fuck is taxes.. and she slapped me.." We both laughed,
  "Maybe.. maybe you shouldn't have gotten.. fucking high at school.." The red head boy said, "your mum.. sounds scary..." we both laughed again. The rest of the night was a blur, but I remember figments of it..
  "Yeah.. well, she wouldn't have found out if my.. teacher wasn't a bitch..!"
  "Yeah.. haha.." We laughed quietly to ourselves before relaxing on the back of the slide.. "wanna.. wanna go for a walk?" I shrugged,
  "Sure... sounds terrific..!"

The wind was getting a bit more chillier, and the clouds kept covering the moon. We didn't say much, but I kept laughing at god knows what. And I think he only laughed because I did so,
  "You know..." his voice is quite, "I thought.. you were a bit weird.. and aggressive.. when. When we first met.. I thought you'd kill me with your hug.." he laughed.. and god, forgive me. But I wanted him to keep on laughing.. selfish. I know. "But.. you're cooler than I thought.. ya know.." His hair was now a mess, it looked more like him. It's a bit more curly, but also straight.
  "Oh, yeah.. haha.. sorry 'bout that.. I like hugs.." I laughed slightly..