10 reasons why I couldn't love you | tk

7 (TW: SA)

Reason #7

I was a whore

I had learned later I was naked for a reason.

Jay had intentions which I couldn't see because I was so in love with you and making sure you did not see those pictures of me.

I didn't want you to see me as a whore over some useless pictures.

Yet here I was in a bed naked with strangers on top of me.

I was a whore.

Now I no longer needed to hide it.

My world kept spinning and all I could think about was you when you found out how disgusting I was. How i was tainted.

I wished it was a dream.

I wished everything was fake and that everything would dissolve if I closed my eyes hard enough

But it wasn't. I could feel lingering eyes on me. Hot flesh against my skin burning it with each graze.

I was a pathetic whore, moaning for the strangers on top of me.

I was a senseless pathetic whore.

That's why I couldn't love you