In a distant land

RED

How could I be so reckless ? I spat blood on the floor . Another blow on my stomach and again I coughed a handful of blood .

I think I'll die today .

My father picks up the vase which is nearly as big as a my arm and hits me with it , and my head hits the floor.

Was all this blood on.the floor mine?  Why is Mrs Li not doing anything beside crying ? What an old hag .

"You fucking bitch how dare you try to kill me" I lay motionless. Grieving how unsuccessful my plan was . If only I couldn't think of him as my father and would've poured the poison In his tea wouldn't have to see my blood spilled across the room .

He forces me up holding my hair while I scream in agony.
And slams my face on the kitchen slab . That's when I decided to change my fate .

I grabbed the kitchen knife and thrusted right into his heart . "I hope you burn in hell" I yell . I twist the knife and stab him several time with all the leftover power I had in myself . Each muscule in my body was crying , my vision was so blurry yet my hands didn't stop they kept stabbing him . Until Mrs Li stopped me .

"Vivian what have you done ?" She dragged me away from the corpse and slapped me hard .

I pushed her "Why slap me , what did I do wrong.  Did you slap him when I was going to die . Tell me . Tell me" I scream on top of my lungs and slump on the floor .

I think I've lost my mind . I'm finally safe and what i did was just to protect myself .

"Do you realise you've killed him , you're a murderer" she was heaving "Do you know you can't live a peaceful life anymore but will rot In prison" .

No , I want a peaceful life . It can't happen everything should he alright I've killed him . I'm free . I'm no longer crippled . I've avenged my mother . I have whatever I wanted. 

"Nobody will love you , Vivian . No one do you realise that" she screams at me .

' No one will love me ' ............................. these words ring in my ears . I repeated them .

"You're lying" I scream at her .

Haneul loves me , he himself said he loves.  Even minji they wouldn't hate me never I grab the phone from my pocket and called him .

"Who are you calling?"

"I'll show you that Haneul loves me" I think I'm going insane  .  Haneul loves me . He will come . He is mine .

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Someone slammed open the door.  And screamed my name . "Vivian".

"Hanuel" I attempted to get up but every muscule in my body punished me .

He was stunned when he saw my father lay cold on the floor and me sitting covered in blood smiling at him .

"You came for me" he comes cautiously closer to me and crouched down .

"What happened ?" He ignored the old woman in the room and asked me .

"I killed him" I sniffled between those words and tears welled up in my eyes , I fall in his arms no longer able to endure the pain . "Do you hate me ?"

"I could never hate you ,love" he rubs my back trying to calm me down and whispers something to someone I coudnt catch . White dots appeared in my vision before everything changed to pitch black .