My Power

You. Are. Not. Okay.

The classes continued like ever but something was not right.

You see Sirius has been feeling down lately and for some reason it was having an effect on me and everyone who were used to his chaotic existence.

Even professor Slughorn was shocked that Black was not doing weird shit with the couldrons and the potion ingredients, Mcgonagall was impressed but looked like she missed giving him and James weird tasks as detentions and of course the most miserable person in this was James, actually scratch that, the marauders were miserable.

James did not have anyone as partner in crime in his stupid (but hilarious) pranks, Remus couldn't get a single reason to scold Black teasingly and Peter was scared he would get bullied by the 3rd years again.

We were all concerned to say the
least. And all that happened between him andI was -

"Are you okay?" I asked
"I'm okay" he nodded not looking at me at all

"Are you fine?" I whispered watching his shaking hand which was slicing a beetroot

"I'm totally okay" He said looking up at my expressions.

YOUR POV :

I walked down the stairs as I looked around the empty common room, of course it was empty since it's practically in the middle of the night, when I see James Potter sulking on a rocking chair.

I walked upto the couch and sat down. It was silent for a minute or two when I finally asked "what happened?" Looking into James hazel eyes that looked weirdly sad, "He is not okay, Padfoot is for the first time not sharing something and it's taking a toll on everyone, you know" he ranted, sitting beside me as sank into the couch bitterly.

I simply nodded at his statement not wanting to show my overflowing concern. This really is not normal for any of us to the point even Lily fucking Evans is concerned.

I stood up as I patted James' shoulder comforting him a bit "he would be alright maybe he just needs some space? Right?"

"I hope, Goodnight y/l/n" James said standing up as he walked towards his dorm "Goodnight Potter".

And with that I left the common room to have a small walk around the castle. I was not feeling comfortable enough to sleep tonight, my feet felt weirdly warm and my hands felt sweaty, so I thought maybe this might help.

"Lumos" I whispered

I walked around enjoying the cool breeze, 'it's gonna be winter soon' I thought as my gaze stopped towards the astronomy tower. I was right near the tower's back stairs maybe I can go up and enjoy 'me time' properly?

I started climbing the stairs and the closer I got the more I could hear someone breathing loudly with a sniff every now and then. Not wanting to leave the person alone like that I walked in on someone sitting on the floor. Crying.

"Y/l/n?" He said in a croaky voice

"Black." I said barely audible

"Why are you here?" He hurriedly stood up turning away looking straight outside near the railing.

"Are you o-okay??" I walked upto him. "I just came to have a good 'me time' up here" I said as I looked up at him feeling my heart sink at his half pained expression.

" 'me time'?" He chuckled making me smile a bit, "yeah I was not able to sleep you know how it gets too uncomfortable sometimes?" I furrowed my eyebrows already feeling irritated by thinking about it.

"Why did you come here?"  I looked at him making him look back at me and smile a bit "you've already seen me cry, so ofc I came here to let it out. It's a good place to do so" I nodded.

Further asking, "what's bothering you?" I softly gave him a glance which he caught making me look away instantly.

He stayed silent, not saying anything at all and I didn't force him to speak either so I just stood beside him.

Quite

"I'm okay" He said softly

This is it. We've had enough of this. I can't see his friends and everyone around him get sad because he is NOT okay.

I looked at him annoyed
"You. Are. Not. Okay" I said with finality in my voice.

And he finally looked at me with shock and curiosity as I walked closer to him. " You think that James, Remus, Peter and everyone around you is just sad because they want to be?" He looked up as if he didn't expect me to say that.

"What's wrong with you? I understand that we all go through something one time or the other but this is not the solution. Silence. It's not the solution. Share it with your closest people like James or Remus or just someone and get over it. Getting depressed over it is not gonna bring you anything"

He looked at me and then looked at the sky not replying to me making me feel half embarrassed. And with that we fell silent again.....until

" It's them. It's my parents again. You see my grandmother died this week, it's been a week. When I was a kid she used to play with me, feed me and care for me which my mother didn't" He brushed away a tear " when she died my mother sent me a letter just to inform me that she had passed away but I was obviously not invited to her funeral because I am a 'blood traitor'. I will not be able to see her ever again and its killing me on the inside" he let out his feelings making his voice crack at the end.

"I'm so sorry, oh my god" I said feeling myself tear up.

He practically broke down "please don't cry Sirius" I said shifting closer as I softly pulled his chest closer, hugging him.

I felt him freeze before he hugged me back crying on my shoulder, holding on for dear life and I did the same as I patted his back.

'This is gonna be awkward when we get back to normal' my thoughts said.
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The end✓

Aura~