Love's Thorned Path. - Seongjoong smut.

Slow Love Discovery

Seonghwas POV
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I walked in to class and went to my seat, my friend San was already there.

"Morning Seonghwa."

I looked at him with a smile.
"Morning."

My friend San, he was quite too young for 12th grade but with his luck of picking random answers and getting them all right in tests he was able to be raised to the same grade as I. I took out my books and started explaining the things I wasn't able to our last time we studied together. We went almost to all of the same subjects.

Two people walked into the class and I lift up my eyes to see who it was. It was Hongjoong and Sans sister - Chihun. I never really liked her, but the energy of Hongjoongs was really warming to me.
Hongjoong looked at me and waved with a wink and I waved right back at him with a slight smile.

San pinched my cheek.
I looked back at him.
"Sorry."

I continued explaining things to him and then Hongjoong came up right after I just continued to speak.
"Yo, is there any tests today?"
He looked over from San to me and from me to San.

I opened my mouth to speak but I got too nervous and only pushed out the sounds:
"I- I-"

San sighed.
"No, he just is explaining things to me that I didn't understand."

"Right.."
I sighed and looked back down at the book.

Hongjoong pat my head and went back to his desk.

"Seonghwa, what was that?"
San widened his eyes at me.

I looked back up at him.
"I got nervous."

"How did that make you nervous?"
He pointed at Hongjoong.

"Shh!"
I brang his hand down.

"Tell me!"
He whispered and frowned at me.

"I don't- I don't know!"
I whispered back.

He fixed his eyebrows and lift his eyebrows and widened his eyes again.
"You like him?"

"I don't know!"
I whispered.

"No you definitely like him."
He pointed at me and smiled.

"He has a girlfriend, I can't."
I whispered.

"It's just my sister, she's ugly."
He laughed.

I looked down at myself and then looked back up at him.

"You're better looking than her."
He pat my shoulder.

After the lessons

"What are you gonna do for your birthday?"
San smiled at me.

"Nothing."
I sighed.

"But it's literally tomorrow and you're turning eighteen-"

"I'm not doing anything."
I interrupted him.

He starred at me while staying quiet.

He sighed and spoke.
"Can I at least gift you something?"

"At break up between your sister and Hongjoong."
I mumbled.

"What?"

I turned to him and smiled.
"Oh! Nothing, nothing. I don't like gifts."

"Cmon, Seonghwa!"
He frowned again.

"Chocolate."
I said quietly.

"I was gonna get you that anyways."
He smiled.

I looked back at the ground, the thoughts of Hongjoong were flooding my mind, it was making me want to cry of how badly I wanted him.
San softly slapped my shoulder.

I looked up at him and he had a serious expression.
"Are you stressed?"

"Tired."

"Oh."

We stayed quiet for a bit but then he once again broke the silence.
"Seonghwa I know what you're worrying about. You being a quiet person makes me just feel even more bad for you."

"I'm sorr-.."

"You don't have anything to be sorry about."
He interrupted me.

"You're overthinking it."
He continued.

I looked down at the ground and tears started forming in my eyes. Seeing him with another person even if I wasn't with him was hurting me, I was acting like a twelve year old, I needed to pull myself together.

I looked back up and wiped away the tears with my sleeve.
"I am. I definitely need to stop."

When San led me home, as soon as I closed the door I fell to the floor and my tears started flooding my face. It felt like I was going to have a sad birthday this year.