As Soon As Possible

Chapter Seven

Chapter Seven: If I Were You

Sam

So much for revenge! I can't believe Freddie notice all f that crap. The plan is just starting. Why does life hate me so much? Why can't things work in my way? At least just for one day! Did you ever experience the situation in life that involves your stupid hypothalamus, specifically your love emotions?   It comes naturally and it's such a bad thing. All I ever wanted is to admit what is inside. What's that too much to ask?

I was about to leave Carly's apartment because we are done doing the special web cast,  but then this nerdy dork came rushing towards me. AH! I don't want to deal with this! I don't want to deal with him!

"Sam, wait up" Freddie approaches.

"NO! Not now nub!" I replied bitterly. Then Carly join the conversation.

"Guys, I need to go downstairs. So if you'll excuse me. I'll be at the kitchen making some lemonade". Oh Carly! Why now?

"No, Carl-"and she was gone! Now there's going to have a conversation.

"Sam, I am confused! Please tell me what's going on." Freddie said as soon as Carly is out the door.

"Nothing is going on, okay? So what I use him for revenge? So what I broke his nose? So what you find out very quickly? It doesn't even matter because you don't care! And you won't!" I stated. I am angry and at the same time guilty. I don't really want to do what I did. I am just mad. I am just Jealous, AH! It's still hard to admit!

"What do you mean nothing is going on? You said it yourself Sam. You use him for revenge, you broke his nose, and I don't even know that it's revenge! How am I supposed to deal with all the chizz, Huh? It still involves me, Sam! And if you are too worried about me not caring about everything, well then stop worrying! Because I Care! Can't you just see that?" He said making sense while walking closer to me so we are now facing each other faces with fair inches away.

"It's not my problem that you can't deal with things in your own! And also keep it in mind that I am still mad of what you did! Do you think I'll just forget about everything you said? Well, News Flash this isn't a romance fiction! I might be the co-host of iCarly, I might be the toughest girl you know, but I am still a human being! I still have feelings! I am also getting hurt, Freddie. Hearing those words broke me into pieces, and hearing it from you killed me! Do you think One Sorry can fix all of this?" I said getting angrier and angrier. I can't hold it back. It's too hard to keep it.

"Then why did you save me the other day? Why did you use to date the guy that is the reason why you did what you did? I know your hurt and everything, I'm sorry. I know it isn't enough for you but it's just what I can do". He said calmly. How can he be calm in a situation like this? I might like punch his face any minute now. Shouldn't he be worried?

"I told you. That doesn't matter okay? It's just all fake! Now leave before I do something that you'll regret after". Is all I could reply! He is f***king right! I hate it.

"Do whatever you want because I can assure you that I won't regret anything that surrounds it. I just want to make things clear, Sam! I want to know!" Okay you want to know? I LIKE YOU, I FREAKING LIKE YOU THAT IS WHY THINGS ARE GETTING COMPLICATED! I just wish I could say that out loud!

"I hate you! That is why. I want to make your life miserable. You are not my friend! All I want to do is get you out of my life. Because you're irritating, and exhausting!" then the opposite of that came out of my mouth! Just so you know, I did not mean it all.

"Oh" he said with a very disappointed tone of his voice and a painful face. "Is that it? If it is, then I am sorry if I'd been a big problem in your life. And for what I said, I did not mean it all, Sam. I was mad because I thought you were something that I didn't know for a long time. I am sorry". He apologizes then walk passed by me and open the door. OH CHEESE! Now I just made things worst with me and Freddie. It's just very hard to confess that I like him, that I want to be his girlfriend, that he is the one for me! Stupid hormones! He is a geek and I am aggressive. See why it's very hard? Urghh! I hate it when love comes. That is why I don't trust it!