Seeking Gaston Lynx Esquivel

Chapter 13

The next few days have become harder for me. Ramdam ko ang pagbabago sa pag-uugali ko. I became irritated with simple inconveniences and my patience is nowhere to be found. Peter noticed it and he remained silent.

"Come on Gaston, let's dance!"

Someone pulled me to the dance floor and I let in. The party goers went wild, moving their bodies to the loud music. I let the atmosphere consume me as the woman in front of me danced wildly.

We are at the bar, but not where she works. Ayoko ng tumapak sa pinagtatrabahuhan niya.

"Whooah!" The people cheered as the music started getting wilder as the DJ played more sensual music.

I just found  myself kissing the girl wildly in the center of the dance floor as she touched me sensually all over my body. Fuck! Am I getting laid tonight? I held her waist tighter to mine as I kissed her neck sensually.

"Ahhh!" I heard her moan louder in my ears drawn by the loud music of the bar.

"Do you want to get out of here? Let's get out Gaston, please." She kissed my neck and sensually whispered into my ears.

I smirked at her. "Let's go."

She gasped as we entered our hotel room. She kissed me instantly as she clung her arms to my neck. She jumped into me and I held onto her butt. She kissed me more aggressively while she started rubbing her lower body to mine.

"Gaston!" She shrieked as I laid her down on the sofa.

I opened my eyes, my vision is now hazy but I can still manage. I've drunk too much alcohol in the bar.

"Gaston!" I looked at her and she is not really familiar to me.

I hovered over her and kissed her neck aggressively.

"Gaston, ahhh!" She moaned so loud and I stopped.

I looked at her again and all I could see this time was her face. Carmella's face. I stopped what I was doing and stood up. I looked at her again and she still is. Am I drunk? Too drunk?

I shook my head trying to get rid of her image in my mind. Tumalikod at napahawak sa aking noo ng mariin. Why am I thinking about her again? Fuck! This is making me insane.

"Gaston, please come back in here" She hugged me from behind as she continued kissing my nape, trying to get back my energy from before, but I can't feel it coming back anymore.

I face her and now she is totally naked. She looked at me sensually then went back to the sofa. She laid herself and opened her legs for me. She sensually touched herself while looking at me.

"Ahhh Gaston!"

But I am not myself anymore. This isn't me. Huminga ako ng malalim at pinulot ang damit niya na nagkalat sa sahig.

I handed it to her. "I'm sorry."

I turned my body back and looked for the door. I heard her scream my name but I totally closed the door.

Wala ko sa sarili na sumakay ng elevator. Napasandal ako at gusto ko na lamang iuntog ang sarili ko. What is happening to me? I can't stand not having sex for a long time, and it's been more than two months already.

I lit my cigarette as I entered my car. I've been frequently smoking since the hospital scene happened. Pakiramdam ko nawala ang pagkalasing ko ng makita ang mukha niya kanina. I am really whipped and I don't know how to stop this one. I frustratedly manoeuvred my car. I just want to go home now, take a bath and go to sleep.

Halos hating gabi na at wala ng traffic. Nakarating kaagad ako sa penthouse at kaagad na napahiga. My libido went off as soon as I saw her face. I looked at the side of my bed and somehow saw Carmella right there staring at me coldly. I chuckled loudly. I must be really drunk cause I imagined her being anywhere.