Your Guardian Angel (BxB)

Chapter 7: Secrets & Confessions

CONTENT WARNING: This chapter contains mentions of suicide. Proceed with caution.

The pic is Danny. (He won't be mentioned as much in the rest of the story, but I figured I'd put a pic of him anyway.)

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About a month has passed since the incident with Ethan and things have been a lot more peaceful since then. I'm not sure what happened to the other two guys, but I haven't seen them around, so it's safe to assume they got expelled (and hopefully arrested) too. For the first time in a really long time, I'm no longer feeling that sense of dread I'd get the moment I stepped into the building. I actually feel comfortable at school, something I know I wouldn't be feeling if that bastard and his buddies were still here. The only thing that still pops into my mind occasionally is that weird note I found in my locker. None of the faculty have been able to figure out the identity of whoever wrote it. It doesn't bother me that much though. If they can't find who wrote it, then I guess the best thing to do is just forget about it.

That isn't the only thing. Over that time period, me and Tommy have gotten a lot closer. When we're not at school, we text or call each other all the time. It's basically become a part of my daily routine. Sometimes we're up past midnight talking. We talk about anything and everything that comes to mind. It's not just small talk, either. A lot of our conversations get really deep and intimate. During one of our talks, I discovered that Tommy used to struggle with self-harm when he was at his old school, and I had revealed that I also used to struggle with it and how I still sometimes get the urge to start again. That's the interesting thing about our talks, they've gotten me to open up about stuff that I couldn't imagine telling anyone else. I can't help but wonder if they do the same for Tommy.

Sometimes, the conversations get a little flirty. We send hearts to each other and talk about what it would be like if we were dating. Recently, Tommy's started calling me little nicknames like "hon" or "sweetheart".  Only while we're texting though, he's never called me those names over the phone or when we're hanging out in person.
We both act like we're just joking around, but sometimes it makes me wonder...

I'm currently looking through our recent conversation, from last night, and the last couple texts are what I'm focused on.

T: We get our essays back in English today, I'm like 90% sure I'm gonna fail it lol (12:34 A.M.)

T: I didn't do it until the last minute and there was absolutely no effort put into it (12:35 A.M.)

N: Really? I looked over it, I thought you did a pretty good job (12:35 A.M.)

N: I wouldn't stress it too much. Smith's an easy grader, it's literally impossible to fail his class. You'll be okay (12:35 A.M.)

T: Good point, that makes me a little less worried (12:36 A.M)

T: You always know what to say to make me feel better, you're an angel <3 (12:36 A.M.)

N: Only for you ;) (12:37 A.M.)

T: That's kinda gay, sweetie (12:37 A.M.)

N: You're kinda gay (12:37 A.M.)

T: Lmao (12:38 A.M.)

T: Anyway I'm gonna go to bed, been a long day. See ya tomorrow <3 (12:38 A.M.)

N: See ya, goodnight <3 (12:39 A.M.)

I sigh and bury my face in my hands, wishing that it was easier to figure everything out. I like Tommy, I really do. Over the past few weeks, I've finally managed to come to terms with the fact that I've caught feelings for him, but I'm still trying to accept that I actually want to be with him. I know it's better if I don't. After everything that happened between me and Danny back in eighth grade, I made a promise to myself to avoid relationships as best as I could. It's been pretty easy to do so...until now.