50 hues of heartbreak

*S Chapter three flashbacks

I was laying on my bed thinking about Ethan and my brain flooded with memories of us, my favorite memory that came to mind was of our first time sleeping together I closed my eyes letting the memory take over.

-☆𝐅𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐡 𝐁𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭☆-

Ethan's hands roamed my body and I tangled my fingers in his hair as he kissed my neck gently I let out a small moan and he chuckled "Are you one hundred percent sure about this my love" he questioned with his hot breath on my neck "yes I'm sure" I said waiting for him to do something, Ethan slowly slipped off my shorts and underwear, before kissing my lips gently then kissing his way down my body to my thighs before sucking on the inside of my right one. He slipped off his boxers before grabbing a condom slipping it on and i bit my lip watching him as he slipped them off slowly putting on the condom and He slowly pushed himself inside of me. I moaned his name quietly as he waited for me to adjust to his dick I nodded and he started to move slowly at first and then he picked up the pace I moaned loudly as I arched my back slightly. One of Ethan's rough hands gripped my left hip as the other found its way to one of my Breasts he squeezed it gently while still going at a good pace I was a moaning mess and he groaned with pleasure and I tangled my fingers in his hair once more tugging on it gently he groaned. I looked up at him and he smiled down at my the best he could, I moaned his name one more and with the best composure I could gather "Ethan I'm close" Ethan smiled again at this statement "me to baby" I smiled slightly before moaning again and he and I came at the same time. He pulled out before taking the condom off and throwing it away, he Picked me up taking me to the bathroom to clean up....

-☆𝐅𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐡 𝐁𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐄𝐧𝐝☆-

I opened my eyes smiling at the memory but my smile quickly faded when I remembered he was gone, I heard a knock at my door "It's open" I said softly the door opened and my Brother Walked in with a tray of food and water, "I figured you'd need this since you haven't rated all day" he said quietly setting it on my nightstand. "Thank you Lyle." I said smiling "yeah yeah whatever weirdo just try and eat something please" he said not looking at me "does this mean you actually love me" I said before chuckling standing up and hugging him, surprisingly Lyle hugged me back and I Enjoyed the moment considering that my brother isn't an affectionate person well pulled away a while after and we both sat on my bed. I grabbed the food he brought me and started to eat it, I spilled the feelings out to him and he comforted me the best he could. "Thank you again Ly I don't know what I would do without you being here for me" I said tearing up slightly, "hey no don't do that don't cry it's ok I knows he's gone and all but it's ok, our family's here for you no matter what you've got good friends to so please don't give up." My brother said looking at his hands before getting up and closing the curtains and walking to the door "gets some rest De I'll be here when you wake up to talk more." he said before shutting off the light and shutting the door. I smiled I genuinely smiled for the first time since I found out about Ethan I set the rest of my food back onto the tray before getting under my comforter and closing my eyes falling fast asleep.

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