50 hues of heartbreak

* Chapter 5

I was laying down on my bed reading pride and prejudice when I was pulled from my thoughts by the sound of knocking on my door. "It's open" I said looking up from the book, As the door opened I saw my beloved best friend Ember. She smiled at me before walking over to bed and sitting by me. "I thought maybe we could have a girls day since you can't go to School" she said looking at me, I put the book down before looking at her and smiling "well, what did you have in mind?" I questioned and she smiled at me again before saying "Well I thought we could uhh go visit Ethan if you're up for it." My smile dropped slightly as I looked at her a bit shocked before saying "I mean if you drive we can I haven't visited his grave since the funeral." I sighed as Ember got off my bed pulling me up onto my feet, "Good now put your shoes on We're going to see Ethan!" She would say before grabbing my shoes and pushing them into my chest gently. I chuckled before sitting down and putting them on before getting up and handing Ember my keys from the nightstand. After me and ember got into my Jeep, she turned up the radio and one of our favorite songs Creep by Radiohead was playing. I smiled at the song before closing my eyes, letting myself think about

-☆𝐅𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐡 𝐁𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭☆-

"Ethan, I want to try something new!" I smiled at my boyfriend who was Playing a game on his phone. Ethan looked at me before chuckling and saying "Like what babe?" His eyes looked over my facial expressions. I giggled before grabbing his phone and gently setting it on his night stand and looking back at him. Ethan rolled his eyes playfully as I lifted a leg over his lap straddling him and put my hands on his chest. "Well Darling I want to try a different position that we don't normally try" I would explain before kissing his neck gently. Ethan's hands found their way to my hips, "I mean I'm down to try whatever you want My love" I smiled into his neck before pulling away as I pulled my shirt over my head exposing my naked chest to him. Ethan looked down at my breasts smiling, before letting go of my hips to take off his shirt and throwing it to a random place in his room. I slowly slid off of Ethan's lap and off the bed to remove my sleep shorts as Ethan pulled off his shorts and boxers. I giggled before climbing back into the bed and started to straddle his lap slowly sliding myself onto his dick, Ethan groaned softly as he watched me. I moaned as Quietly as I could, I put my hands onto his shoulders for support before starting to slowly move my hips letting myself adjust to his length. He would groan slowly as I started to ride Him while I moaned his name quietly, I would start to bounce up and down a bit after while gripping his shoulder for stability. Ethan squirmed under me slightly and I chuckled before bouncing fast......
-☆𝐅𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐡 𝐁𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐂𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭☆-

I was woken by ember shaking me I mentally groaned at the fact I was pulled from a delightful memory until I remembered where we were headed before I got caught up in my thoughts, tEmber offered me a sweet smile and i smiled back wearily before Ember moved out of my way so i could get out of the car. As we walked to his grave, I felt a cold icy breeze blow across my face. I shivered as we got closer and closer to his grave, Ember seemed to notice this because she wrapped an arm around my shoulders comfortingly. As soon as we got to his grave I could feel my heart shattering into a million pieces again, I suddenly fell to my knees in front of it as I started to weep. Ember kneeled down next to me and hugged me tightly "its ok De. I know this must be hard being back here again, but just try coming here more often and telling him you're feeling and it might just help you get your mind off everything." ember said as i just sat there listening to her and crying. Ember sighed before letting go of me and saying "I'll give you some time alone to talk to him, I'll be in the car waiting for you." I looked up at her as she spoke before nodding, and Ember kissed the top of my head as she got up and walked to the car. After Ember had left I looked back at his grave. I wiped the tears from my face before I started to rant about all my feelings that I've had the past few days. And for a moment I felt like Ethan was there with me like he was trying to comfort me, So as the cold breeze made me shiver, Ember came back with a blanket, wrapping it about my shoulders before giving them a squeeze. "Maybe whenever we're done we could go to Freddy's for some custard?" Ember would say while hugging me, "I would like that Em, maybe We should get ready to leave. I wouldn't want to cry anymore than I already have this week." I would say while sniffing, "If that's what you want De" she would chuckle before helping me up and taking me to the car, the last thing I remember was Ember starting the car before I drifted off to sleep...