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Contented.

That's what I'm feeling right now. I am contented on how my life turned.

Of course, at first I can't believe. I couldn't believe in myself that the word "Contented" is what my life at. It's like I'm in a cloud nine, or maybe I'm really in a cloud nine because the life that I have now is unexpected and unimaginable yet unique. Unique, because I still can't imagined that this how my life would be.

That's why.... I am grateful. I am grateful of all of the things that happened in my life for the last three years.

All in all, I am grateful with my life.
But, I am more grateful because Riguel is with me.

I mean, who wouldn't thought that Riguel Jameson Alleje will marry a girl like me? Liliene Ylena Altramirano, na isang batang hamog noon. Ngunit.... May mga batang hamog narin ngayon.

May mga anak na kami ni Riguel ngayon. Tatlo, at puro lalaki. Although, puro lalaki at halos lahat eh kuhang-kuha ang hugis nang tatay nila. Pero, pare-parehong namang Mama's boy.

Huh. Akala siguro ni Riguel na porket puro mga lalaki anak namin eh magiging Papa's boy na. That shit is definitely wrong.

Tatlo na yung mga anak namin. Pero---- sa palagay ko, I mean malakas yung kutob ko na hindi papayag si Riguel na wala kaming anak na babae. Syempre ako rin no and sana this time maging kamukha ko na. Ayukong humiling na sana maging babae dahil alam ko naman na ano man ang maging gender ng anak namin ay buong-buo kong tatanggapin. Malamang, dahil galing yun sa sinapupunan ko. Pero still, sana this time babae naman. Para naman malaman ko kung anong feeling na may anak na kamukhang-kamukha mo. Kasi, sa totoo lang napapaisip ako kung ano kayang feeling ni Riguel na yung taltlong anak namin na puro lalaki eh halos kamukha niya. Actually, I think naitanong ko na sa kaniya yan and as far as I can remembered ngisi lang yung isinagot niya. Yabang din eh no. #ProudTatay. At hindi ko rin siya masisisi.

Pero, sa tuwing iniisip ko na manganganak ulit ako parang ayuko na lang ulit magkaroon ng anak. Ayuko nang manganak. Masakit. Sobrang sakit. Pero, masarap gumawa ng bata.