Hold Me Close (Tom Kaulitz)

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„Why are you so nice to me?" You asked Tom. He looked at you for a moment, thinking about what he should say. „I don't know." You looked at him with a disappointed face, you really want to know why. And you know there must be a reason. „There has got to be a reason Tom. Ever since we know eachother , you were completely shit to me, and now you just stopped that." You said and he probably saw your disappointment. „I really have no idea. Something switched inside of me, and I couldn't be shit to you anymore." „So you finally got some empathy and sympathy?" You laughed. „I think so." He shrugged.

„I do have to go home now. Bill is probably wondering where I am." He said and got up. You just nodded and stayed on your bed. Tom got out your room, didn't even say goodbye. „I shouldn't have asked him." You thought to yourself.

Later this day, you decided to go to the beach nearby. You packed a small bag with water, cigarettes and a towel to sit on. „Where are you going?" Your mother asked you, just as you opened the door to go outside. „To the beach." „You do know that there is rain coming?" She asked and you just shrugged your shoulders and headed outside.

When you left your house and started walking to the beach you got a message. „Where you going?" an unknown number said. „Are you a stalker or something?" You answered. „I'm Tom." „So you are a stalker." You looked over to his house and saw him standing on the frontporch. He waved at you and then started to walk up to you. As soon as you saw him walking, you started to walk away. „Wait." He yelled and ran up to you. „What do you want?" You said clearly pissed. „To come with you." He just answered and put his arm around your shoulders again. You just rolled your eyes, but somehow you didn't really mind him coming with you and him having his arm around you.

After 20 minutes you finally reached the beach. There was already a big grey cloud on the horizon. „Picked the wrong day to go to the beach, love." He said and you raised an eyebrow at him. „Love?" „Yeah. I mean, if you don't mind me calling you that." He said softly and eventhough you acted like you hate this name, you actually liked it. „I know you like it." He said and nudged your arm. „Shut up." You just said, but you couldn't help but smile.

„So what do you wanna do now? We clearly need something to get under so we don't get wet." He said as it started to slightly rain. You just looked at the beach and didn't answer. You like sitting in the rain. You don't want to get out of it. „Obviously you want to get sick. Alright, we can sit here I guess." Tom got out his jacket and started holding it above the both of you. „Thanks." You said quietly.

„Why did you think I hated you?" Tom asked after you both just sat in silence for a while. „You always picked on me. And you said things, people wouldn't say if they like one." Without noticing yourself, you lend away from him a bit. „I also pick on my brother, still doesn't mean I hate him." „Maybe you should not do that? I mean, people don't really feel good, when you literally bully them." It got you mad how lightly he took it. „I didn't mean to bully you." He said and you could hear his voice breaking in sorrow. „But you did." That was the moment you decided to pack your bag again and stand up. „Don't be mad. I just said I didn't mean to." He said and grabbed your wrist. Your eyes widened at the grip. He immediately noticed and pulled his hand away. „I'm sorry, I didn't mean to touch you like that." You just turned around and left.

As you walked away, you turned around one time and saw him still sitting at the same spot. He was looking at the water. You felt bad, but you knew you shouldn't. He should be the one feeling bad. He didn't even think about apologizing for the bullying. Maybe he didn't change, maybe he still is as heartless as he was a few days ago. Maybe he just wanted to make you vulnerable.

Luckily you got back home in time. The weather was getting worse and it was full on storming outside. You thought about Tom still sitting at the beach for a moment. Is he still sitting there? Hopefully not. You thought to yourself.

„Please tell me you are not at the beach right now." you texted him. Even though you were mad at him, you still don't want anybody to be outside in a storm. When you looked back at your message, you saw that he already read it. But no answer. You decided to brush away the thought of him sitting there and you just laid on your bed and put on some movie.

5 minutes in the movie, you suddenly heard something at you window. You got up and looked what it was. Then you heard it again. Someone was throwing little rocks at your window. You opened it and looked down. „Why don't you just text me instead of possibly breaking my window?" You yelled down. „These rocks won't break your window. And I thought it would catch more attention, than just one message." „What do you want Tom?" You asked, clearly pissed. „To apologize." „Ok then do that." You just said. „I will, after you let me inside." He smiled. „You could have just rang the doorbell, you know?" Tom shrugged and walked up to the door.

„Now. Apologize. I'm waiting." Tom was sitting on your bed and you were standing infront of him with crossed arms. „I'm sorry. I'm sorry for bullying you. I really am." He had this look on his face. He was waiting for you to accept it. „Okay. I don't forgive you." You said firmly. You want him to feel bad. He got up and was now towering you, since he was much taller. „That's why I didn't apologize. I knew you would be too full of yourself to just take an apology." His eyes got angry. „You literally fucked me up, Tom. You wouldn't take a simple apology either." He was glaring at you, and so were you. „Fuck you." He said. You thought he would run out your room, but instead, he held your head and pulled you in to kiss you. You quickly pulled away. You just stared at him, trying to realize what just happened. „Sorry-" He said, but you interrupted him by kissing him again.