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Tues. 12 March...
Wonwoo's POV
Waking up from my not so peaceful sleep, my head pounds heavily making me groan from how much it fucking hurts.
Sitting up, I rubbed my eyes, regaining my vision only to see the bedroom in a complete mess.
My clothes are all over the room while I was stuck in just my boxers.
I scrunch up my nose as I reek of alcohol.
To my surprise, there was no one else here but me which is great I guess.
Sighing, I got up and headed to my bathroom to get myself refreshed for the day.
These past two weeks have been hell for me.
I didn't think her popping back up in my life would affect me this much but she was. It felt like I was re-living the past as every emotion from seven years ago and the emotions I feel now were hitting me real hard.
When my mom passed, I told nobody about it, keeping it to myself. I was feeling angry at the world and my dad.
Instead of going to the people who care for me and find comfort, I acted out.
I became distant with Nadia and even Mingyu, indulging myself in heavy drinking, smoking and partying.
There were times where Mingyu would end up finding me in gutters, half asleep in pools, smelling terrible.
He hated it so much and fought with me about fixing myself.
He begged me to tell him what happened and what changed but I couldn't at first.
To admit that my mom was no longer living would mean that it's true and I rather live in my delusions.
That day when Nadia and I broke up, Mingyu was upset with me for having another girl in the car, feeling up on me.
He asked me about Nadia and like the asshole I am, I didn't acknowledge my relationship.
When Nadia and her friends walked away from me after our confrontation, I left school right after.
I went on a long drive, crying my eyes out as my heart was completely broken.
Not only did I lose myself but I lost the most important women in my life and I blamed myself.
