You saved me..(tom kauiltz)

✭.*The truth hurts*.✭

You know what whatever you're just mad that they are prettier than you.(tom) oh, really do even though their name or the song name or the band name (yn) ha ha fucker I do the band name is Tokio Hotel the song name is 1000 oceans and their names are Tom, Bill Gustaf, and George Tom plays the guitar. Bill is a lead singer. Gustaf is the drummer and George is the base. (Tom) me and bill laugh again, wow good job who is the hottest?(y/n) this is gonna be really controversial, but Tom is probably the hottest then Bill, then for sure GUSTAV is actually my first ever crush.

Then the twins were next holy shit. You know what I just realized you and Bill have the same names as the twins and you guys are twins too holy cow however, I never noticed that(bill) maybe bc its us (tom) as soon as Bill said that yn looked completely shocked, and started denying and denying it. I think she was just embarrassed that she told us how she felt after rambling on about how she didn't even mean any of that she fell asleep on my shoulder. She looked absolutely beautiful and that was the problem when she told me that gustav with her first crush. My heart dropped to my stomach. I feel like someone just ripped it out. I knew it was bad. I knew it was really bad. I did not want to admit it, but I realized how much I loved her and how much I regretted all the things I said to her.

We arrive home finally yn absolutely hammered Luka looking at her. He didn't look surprised at all which surprised me. I've never seen yn like this so vulnerable. It was definitely strange definitely weird I didn't know how to explain it. I took her upstairs and later on my bed taking off her shoes and covering her with a blanket, I walked downstairs to see Luke on the couch bill sitting next to him. How are you? Not surprised by seeing her like that I ask him.(Luca) I seen her like that many times. I guess you guys still don't know a lot about her huh.
(Tom) what I know everything about her down to her favorite color, her favorite soap. I literally know everything about her I started to get defensive. I really did believe I knew everything about her. (Luca) yeah, you know everything she wanted you to know about her.(tom) OK then tell me tell me everything I don't know. (Luca) I can tell you some stuff but it's up to her to tell you some others. Look, yn. She's just well u can't save her she can't save me. Her family is broken and so is she some people say that she's unfixable including me I don't think anything can fix her.

I love her, but she's fucked up her mind, her heart, her body, her life, her relationships. The reason why I'm not surprise you like that is because it doesn't matter who or what if you take her out drinking and someone offered her a drink it doesn't matter what it is or who it is, she will drink it she drinks her feelings out until she absolutely blacks out. Yn also hurt herself a lot that's one of the ways she does it and otherwise she burns her arms. That's why she doesn't wear dresses and not her inner thighs she cut herself (tom) Bill was actually shocked. I didn't wanna believe it. I didn't believe it. Bill was trying to call me down, but it just wasn't working. I ran upstairs as fast as I could with them behind me trying to calm me down. Finally, I reach my room I see yn I roll up her sleeves he wasn't lying shed burn marks all over them I moved her legs a little bit he was also right about her inner thighs there were cuts but they were not as fresh as the burns I start to cry, I mean, I start bawling my eyes out I couldn't help but feel that I could've caused some of these I could also see bill crying I didn't know what to do.

I ran out of the house as fast as I could. I went back to the club and got wasted any time ago would come up to me I would think of her anytime a girl kiss me I would think of her finally I couldn't take it and I just left a bottle still in my hand, I get my car and I drive away I drive and drive until I get to a spot that me and yn  used to go to but we were younger. I lay in the grass and fall asleep.

Time skip to next morning
(Yn) I wake up completely hangover with the biggest headache of my life Bill sitting next to me in a chair asleep. I look next to me and Tom isn't there. I'm a little confused, but I realize that my sleeves are pulled up NOTLIKE because I'm a heavy sleeper, but because someone pulled them up. In that moment, I realized they knew I started to cry bill ended up, waking up and hugging me I started apologizing over and over and over and over again until I was out of breath, and finally stopped after getting interrupted bye bill (mein Schatz it okay ik I'm sorry just cry it out it's okay I'm here am not mad. I cry an cry for what seems like for ever I feel so bad that I dragged them in to this mess of my life. I'm so sorry bill am so sorry i never meant to hurt you and drag u in my like problems and I promise to stop I will I tell bill over and over again still crying my eyes out.

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