TW PLS DO NOT READ IF YOU do not feel comfortable about self harm abuse, alcohol running away bad home life and many more. This story has a lot of trigger warning, so please be careful This story is about a girl named Y/N which struggles with an abu...
Time skip to next morning (Yn) I wake up completely hangover with the biggest headache of my life Bill sitting next to me in a chair asleep. I look next to me and Tom isn't there. I'm a little confused, but I realize that my sleeves are pulled up NOTLIKE because I'm a heavy sleeper, but because someone pulled them up. In that moment, I realized they knew I started to cry bill ended up, waking up and hugging me I started apologizing over and over and over and over again until I was out of breath, and finally stopped after getting interrupted bye bill (mein Schatz it okay ik I'm sorry just cry it out it's okay I'm here am not mad.
I cry an cry for what seems like for ever I feel so bad that I dragged them in to this mess of my life. I'm so sorry bill am so sorry i never meant to hurt you and drag u in my like problems
(Bill) Mein Liebling I'm so sorry I did not see how much you were struggling and how sad you really were I'm sorry for leaving you alone in school and I'm so sorry I left you for fam but you have to stop hurting yourself I will always be here for you no matter what okay I promise please just don't hurt your self anymore please when ever you feel like you want to burn or cut run to me I will be there no matter what..
{bills pov} I felt so much guilt build up inside me well y/n sits and crys as I hold her I feel even more guilt for not seeing not helping y/n sooner I was to blind and self absorbed to notice how much she was struggling I should have known ever since we were little y/n struggling with her mental health in and out of hospital after many attempts I felt like I could be a responsible for some of the burns and cuts on her soft innocent body. All I do is hold her as I let her cry it all out in a hug that seemed much needed.
Tom still hade not come home it's been hours since he left it's now early morning still no sign of him. I seen a part of him break when he seen the fresh burns and cuts on her body I know because I also hade a part of me broke up in to a bunch of mini pieces to seeing it Y/n ends up falling asleep in my arms after many hours of crying no less then 3 a little latter I also start to doze off her still in my arms as we fall asleep in toms bed makeup running down are faces. {tomspov} I wake up in what at first glance seem like the middle of no we're tell I see a bench with flowers and vines all over it.
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I new exactly in that moment where I was remembering as me and y/n us to come here. My head pounding felt like it was hot with a hammer many times. I still in shock after seeing y/n's beautiful body with all the scars and fresh wounds broke my heart all over again. how could I have not noticed? How could I be so stupid so selfish I hated my self because of it something I did not realize about myself until now. And the fact that I don't know so much about her but I thought I knew everything.
How much has she heard from me did she not trust me? Was I not important enough to tell did she still not feel comfortable enough talking to me about her struggles really really as close as we say we were I felt 1 million words 1 million thoughts running through my brain all at once confusing me struggling to keep myself in reality I couldn't help but feel so guilty, so confused, so hurt, a little betrayal.
I was one of the closest people to her and I pushed her away I must have infected so much pain among her with out even noticing. I new I hade to see her I need to see her beautiful brown eyes the sparkle when opened big i needed to see her gorgeous smile and he extraordinary body I needed her but why. Why did I feel this why these such strong, confusing feelings about her why now why at all why do a crave her her smile her eye oh her beautiful eyes they glistened like starts in the night sky he body her hair that smells like coconut the way she smells all I can think about is her and if I was being honest with myself, it's been like this for a while. I think it's the reason I started trying to push her way.
I have these feelings that confuse me instead of confronting them I wanted to run away from them to escape them so I didn't have to face the scary uncomfortable feeling, but I felt she wasn't like any other girl. She always had a bright smile on her face always clean always beautiful. I never realized by people bully her so much I think it's just the fact that she's quiet which makes her an easy target doesn't make sense because she's incredibly strong and very active loves exercise. I wish she would stick up for herself I wanted to show her that I didn't just sit there and watch but I couldn't. I always did it in private I would always threaten the people that made fun of her. I had power and I took it to my advantage, and I wanted to show her how much I cared for her and I still stuck up for her. I will still stand by her side , but I couldn't. I felt weak and vulnerable. I didn't like it that's when I knew I hade to make things right.
Awww Tom is so sweet 🥹 1023 words and I posted like 3 chapters today so I joy your reading mein liebt
