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Im starving

Yesterday I went to sailing as I do every Friday , this time I had had hardly any breakfast and no lunch and only ate dinner ( which ended up being half a baguette) after. I capsized on the water as well so I was soaking wet when I went in and freezing, I had to put the boat away before I got changed as well.
At this point of course I'm hungry, tired and extremely cold and wet. I THEN HAVE TO GO TO MY FRIENDS SLEEPOVER WHERE I WAS TEASED FOR AGES FOR BEING LATE. My friends went to bed at about 2am, I couldn't get to sleep so I think I went to sleep about HALF FIVE. And woke up at half six.
Im starving, now on my period  ( I forgot to pack tampons or pads) and so tired I could fall asleep standing up. I do end up falling asleep only it's when we're meant to be HAVING BREAKFAST, my friends forgot to tell me and ate without me, when I would up they had packed up loads of the stuff and I needed to pack mine IN FIVE F*CKING MINUTES. IT ALSO TURNS OUT WE NEED TO GO INTO TOWN TO BUY F*CKING WARHAMMER FOR MY BROTHER, so I pack up obvs late
and get in the car with my stuff we go around town until we have to drop my brother off at a golf practice, cause he's only fourteen and already an old man.
Gonna skip until home cause the rest of that is really boring.

So we're at home and my brothers friends are coming over WHICH I DIDNT KNOW so I didn't get to prepare food early. Now I'm in my room with my stomach rumbling almost constantly too scared to go downstairs and cook a pizza for no reason, all while my dad is talking with a bunch of his friends who are picking home up to go to a wedding party.

I can already tell I'm not going to have dinner and I dont know what to do and I'm terrified for no reason and want to disappear and my eyes closing themselves and I'm so sick of feeling terrible
Now I feel selfish for writing about myself and I feel even more selfish for complaining about being hungry cause at least I'm not in Ukraine and at least I'm not dying and there'll be so many people out there that are more suicidal than me
I'm just the worst person ever
Now I feel so weak for crying and now I'm showing whoever you are that I'm weak and I don't even care anymore cause I deserve to be bullied and have broken bones
Now I feel like people will think I'm an attention seeker and what if am and am so stupid and ignorant to realise or listen to myself.

I need help
Please

No one's even going to see this why do I bother

If you are looking at this why are you waisting your time on me please do something with your life that won't make me feel like I'm worth anything at all
When I'm worth less than a dead rat from the Holy Roman Empire.

I'm so weak I don't even have the courage to jump out of my window headfirst cause I'm too much of a coward

And here I  again being an attention seeker and not realising it

I'm so sorry for burdening you with this you don't deserve it even if your a murderer you shouldnt have to read my shit

I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so  so so so so so so so so sorry

I just went and sat on the edge of my window and I know it's terrible but want to go and leave and my brother and his friends will see my body in a pool of blood on the ground and I don't want them to have to see that

I NEED HELP

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP
ME

No one will even see this within the time frame that I'm in this problem
What's the point

This is maybe two at three hours after I wrote that I've lost track of the time I still haven't eaten I haven't drink for two days either and me headache is worsening by the minute it feels like I have loads of pressure surrounding my body and I feel so alone being able to hear my brother and his friends have a good time.

Again I'm really sorry I've put this burden onto you whoever you may be you don't deserve to have to read this crap.