30 Aug 2019
You are a drug I can't resist, no matter how many times I rehabilitate in order to detox ,you are still my favourite feeling even though you evoke a lot of insecurities within me.
You make me feel whole ...
I know you show affection by hurting me, hence I always come back running to you when I get hurt, because the familiarity drives me back into your arms that are covered in toxicity.
I find comfort in the pain you inflict in me...
They say you toxic, but we both know they just talk sick
they want to see us perish.
Selling us trauma while we pay them for healing-
they say you are not good for me
But they do not know the girl I met when I was 14, she saw the good in me - my heart
of which was a canvas she drew in with paint that dried up and eventually caused scales that are still bleeding from the inside
you painted love and pain with the same paint brush ...
That's the reason why you'll always be my sunshine,
because you are never there when I need you most
but only show yourself when I'm hurt as a means of spiteful comfort.
You setting and rising as you please is alright, because you know what's best for my heart
since you are the first one who unrevealed the sweetness and love it harbours.
~ Mo
