" To Sky
It feels weird calling you by name now , but it does bring a nostalgic feeling doesn't it ?
Remember when we first met ? When I first hugged you?
That hug was tight,well to me it was , may be it's because it was the warmest and most welcoming I've ever received. Remember how intense our kiss was... No one would have ever thought that ,that was the start of our love story. Do you remember the first song I sent to you? Well I do ,it's by Mahalia , titled Remember. I never thought one day I'd listen to it ,and it would bring tears to my eyes , maybe it's because of the way I hurt you...
But do you remember how I used to come around? And hold you down till the sun comes out ?
Do you remember how you used to come around? And hold me down till the sun comes out ?
Do you still jump out of bed and become happy because you are thinking of me?
I still do
Do you remember when you met my family? Fun yeah.. well for me
Do you remember when I said I love you for the first time , truth is I was actually afraid that you wouldn't say you loved me back
Because I always had difficulty reading your emotions , reason being you were always so "nonchalant" , I don't even know how I found myself falling for you may be it's because I've been praying for someone like you to come in my life
Do you remember how happy I was when you asked me to be yours and how unsure you were of us? Great times don't you believe?
Do you remember the first time we had sex ? Well I do , I remember how sceptical you looked
I remember when you looked me in the eyes and I felt guilty as I started to penetrate you , it looked like I was bringing pain in your life and you were okay with it
I remember regretting ever doing it afterwards
Do you remember the first time we made love?...
Do you remember how we would sleep together after I was done writing my exams when I was in Gr11
Do you still remember how much you loved me before I hurt you?
Do you remember how I hurt you?
I do , and that's why I relapsed, you remember my addictions? Tobacco and...
I'm not going to lie and say I didn't know what I was doing, I knew I was hurting you and our relationship
Why did I do that ? Lust mixed with alcohol
Do you remember how hurt you were after finding out? Do you remember how tense it became for us?
Did I tell you I even deleted poems I wrote for your birthday because of my unfaithfulness...
Do you remember how sorry I was? I still am
I just wonder, how are you still able to kiss me..
Do you remember All in my head by SiR? I've been listening to it a lot lately,it took me back to when I was falling in love with you- the sound of your voice, your hugs that led me to salvation, the way you spoke, how pretty you were ...
Angie do you know me?
It's 17, I hope you dream of this too"
All of these poems are just letters Angela,
letters to the streets we walked on,
the tears we cried under the influence of alcohol,
these are letters to our vanishing forever,
words never spoken when we were silent,
These are letters to a love that won't be forgotten, a love so nurturing...
You were so nurturing
Angela all these poems are just pictures,
with our love enslaved in them
These poems are just memories ,
memories of a love that died when I walked out on you
Every now and then my mind rewalks our walk of life , and I meet you all over again
life begins to make sense all over again
I am kissed by God's grace , it rains and we are running carefree once more
But it hits again , you did not allow me to love you with all your flaws and I needed to.
Why didn't you fight for me?
~Teddy
