It's been 18 days since you went away from my life. 18 days without seeing your face. 18 days without hearing your voice. 18 days without feeling your touch. 18 days without waking up to you. I can't tell anymore if I miss you or I miss the feeling of you. Some days I look in the mirror and cry. I remember when you would wrap your arms around me every time I looked in your mirror. I miss that feeling, or when you would say something stupid, and when I tried to force it out of you, you would start laughing and go red, I loved your laugh not hearing it anymore makes me feel so empty inside. Without you, I feel so empty now. I feel as if I have no one and it sucks I feel alone and miserable every day. Sometimes ill be smiling and ill be happy and the thought of you comes and I just lose it. I lose my mind whenever I'm reminded you're gone. Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave me like this? What did I do wrong? And what could I have done to fix it, these questions flood my head every day. No one seems to understand how I lost I feel without you. I feel like I've lost everything. You were my everything, sometimes I try to convince myself that without you ill be okay. But I just to believe that I ever could be okay without you. I don't think you ever knew how in love I was with you. I could write a book about the love I felt for you. And the pain you put me through. But I won't. Part of getting over you is supposed to be forgetting all of this and stop thinking about it. But how am I supposed to forget you? How am I supposed to forget you? Did we mean nothing to you? Did you think of me as nothing towards the end? Why was it so easy for you to move on? Sometimes I look at her account and think what does she have that I don't? What did she give you that I couldn't have given you? I would give you anything if you just asked. I fight the fact that I need to get over you every day. Why is it so hard to erase the idea of you? I gave you everything and I would've given you so much more if you just asked me. I just wish I knew what it was you wanted that I wasn't giving you. I would've done it. Why couldn't we have just talked this out? What was the reason for you to just push this along and leave me as if I was nothing? Man ill never get over it. How could you take everything I gave you? And still do not want this anymore even now I want this back. I'll do anything you ask me to I promise. Just as crazy for you as I was when we first started talking. I don't think you'll ever get or understand how in love I was with you. I hope you know when we first started dating I felt like nothing could've gotten in the way of being happy I felt. I could sit here and write for hours about the questions that fill my head still but we would be here for days. I just wish you understood how I feel now. I hope one day you fall in love with someone the way I fell in love with you. And I hope when you feel what I felt you understand that, that was what I felt when you left and broke my whole world apart. The impact you had on me was crazy man, even with you gone I feel so alone. I don't think I've ever felt so alone. It's crazy how it took 18 days for everything to fall apart.
