It's been almost a month since the breakup. New shit just always comes out everyday. Not only did you betray me with the girl you promised you had nothing for, you blatantly cheated on me with some girl you told me was just a friend. I know that since i found out a month into the breakup i shouldn't care but how am i supposed to feel. You manage to break my heart without even doing anything or saying anything to me. What did I do to you for you to treat me like this? What didn't I give you? I know you warned me before we started dating about you being a liar and manipulator. I dont know why i didnt just fucking listen and stay back. I know I should've left when I saw you texting that girl, but I ignored it and let you be because I didn't want to lose you. No matter how fucking hard i try i cant seem to get over you. Some days I think I'm finally over you and then the next it just all falls back. How did you move on so fast? I just don't understand. What did 4 months mean to you? Because it meant everything to me. Maybe I was naive for thinking this would work. I wish you felt that pain I felt the night of, I couldn't even sleep. I sat there for 7 hours staring at my phone and staring at your user. I felt physically ill. The only thing that calmed some of the heart ache was your sweater. Your scent made me ball my eyes out ten times harder. I had to wait for my best friend to come over for me to get a good hour of sleep. I just don't understand what I did.
