My Unsaid Thoughts

To Her

I don't even know you and I hate you. I hate you so much for taking what was mine. It sounds so selfish but it's true. How could it be possible to hate someone so much without even knowing them? I wonder. Sometimes I try to look at you and make it seem like I'm better than you but I truly believe that you're pretty. Why couldn't you have wanted someone else? Why did you have to take him? Did you know how in love I was? Or did you know and not care? Even though it isn't your fault I want to blame you. But I know I can't it's not right to. But I don't care if it's right or not. I'm still mad. I'm on a roller coaster of emotions every day. Maybe if it wasn't for him we could've been friends. We seem to have so much in common. We like the same shows, movies, songs hell even the same boy except you got him. You won and I need to accept it. But I just can't. You could've had anyone else. Why him? Was it to spite me? Was it cause you loved him? I wish you knew that I loved him. And I know it's not your fault he chose you. But I just wish it wasn't my fault he didn't want me anymore. Because the thought of that aches my heart every day. And it feels like it'll always be like that.