Tokio hotel imagines❤️

Dont let memories go! Of me and you?!

(Bill kaulitz)
{you might cry reading this don't say I didn't warn you}

I woke up to the white sound of the hospital.

"Y/n!" I heard a familiar voice cry out.

It was tom

"Bill isn't here, I sent him home.." Tom said coming to my bedside and holding my hand

I look at him and he had tears coming down his face and his lip is quivering

"Tom" I said weakly and smiled

After I did that it made him cry more

"Don't cry tom..." I said weakly turning to grab his hand with both my hands now. They ached really bad

"Tom... I don't know what happened, can you please fill me in?" I asked him

He nodded and pulled a stool up.

He explained that I cut my wrists deeply longways and tried to kill myself by overdose.

After hearing what I did I felt very guilty.. it was all coming back to me...

I had been suicidal for years on years now.

Ever since bill came along things got better, I never stopped hurting myself though....

Me and bill had gotten into a big fight when he found out I still did

"Y/n what the fuck?!" He said grabbing my arm and letting a tear flow down his face

"Get your hands off me!" I yell pushing him away

"Y/n that is not a fucking solution for your problems! Fuck. I'm here for you- I love you- I want you to be the mother to my kids?! I can't fucking lose you I need you!" Bill yells at me now crying

"I can't fucking do this bill! Everything hurts... I don't know what's real! I can't do this- I can't I'm sorry I need to go-" I said grabbing my keys and leaving...

After driving for a while I came back home to see all the lights off and just sat in my car.

I leaned back into my seat and grabbed the box.

I got out a pocket knife, the letters I had pre written and a bag of pills I got from a druggie downtown.

(Skipping this cause I don't wanna get flashbacks sorry y'all ❤️)

I lied their lifeless in my car and felt my breath going shorter and shorter.

A tear rolled down my face as I passed

I was jolted awake by the loud sound of a siren and doctors pumping liquids in me in an ambulance

"We got a pulse! Stay with us y/n!" The woman above my head said

It had been a couple of hours since I woke up, some doctors came in and questioned me and Tom made me tell the truth to everything. They came in with a meal and told me to eat it all and they'll check up with us later