Save Me

Chapter 19-What Now? (pt 2)

Natalie
I have been pacing around the hospital cafeteria for the last twenty minutes. My fingernails have been completely chewed off and I'm pretty sure the nurses who have been passing through think I have anxiety issues. I'm dreading the conversation Tristan and I are bound to have, the horrible question 'why did you do it'. I am scared to hear the answer fearing that he will say it was my fault.
"Excuse me miss are you alright?" A lady in a white coat asks me.
"Um, I'm fine," I replied.
"Would you like me to lead you back to the psych ward? Its time for afternoon meds."
What did she just say? Do these people seriously think I'm crazy? Well I probably am since I didn't tell my parents where I am but I'm not crazy. Well.... Am I seriously talking to myself.
"Ma'am? Are you alright."
"I'm fine and I'm not crazy. Just a bit nervous."
"Oh OK ma'am."
I saw her turn and whisper something sounding like get a sedative. Do these people really think I'm crazy? Is randomly sedating someone even legal. If they do any crap my friend Kenny's parents are lawyers and I'm gonna sue their butts.
"Hey Nat, um you look crazy." Sherry said walking up to me.
"Touch her with that needle and by the time I'm done you won't even have a name."
I spun around to see Sherry glaring at the lady in the white coat. They were actually going to sedate me?!?! WHAT THE HECK!
"I suggest you go back to whatever you were supposed to be doing and stop judging people. Also its very illegal to just stick a needle into someone's arm like what the hell are you psychotic? Did you get your PhD from a caveman? Idiots." Sherry ranted as she started walking back to the corridor. "Nat are you coming or not?"
"Coming where?"
"To see Tristan obviously. We're all coming to get coffee so you two can be alone."
Oh no. Ugh well I guess this conversation is inevitable. I could head my heart pounding as I walked the seemingly never ending corridor to his room. I held my breath as I opened the door to his room. He was just lying there on the bed with his eyes closed, I assumed he was awake because the others just left so it was now or never.
"Hey," I said figuring that's as good a start to this conversation as any. He opened his eyes and smiled but you could see he was in pain.
"Hey Nat, what's new?" He said.
"You mean like you trying to commit suicide." I said my voice suddenly going cold.
His face fell instantly,"I'm sorry it was an accident."
"An accident! You don't jump off a cliff and say it was an accident!" I screamed, wow I'm emotional.
"Nat I'm sorry. I don't know... I just- don't know. I wasn't thinking, things were just running through my head and I was pacing and the next thing I knew I was falling. I'm so sorry Nat."
"Sure."
"What do you want me to say? That I wanted to die? I actually found something to live for, someone and she doesn't even like me. But I didn't try to kill myself because of it. I actually started to believe things would get better and I think the fact that I'm alive proves things will get better and for me that's my dad coming back and a certain person actually liking me and believing what I'm saying. It was an accident."
I don't even know how to reply to that. Tears were running down my cheeks but I actually believed him. Shocked that a person who almost died could be so positive. If I was lying in a hospital bed I'd probably cry and scream till I pass out. Doing the only thing I could think of I hugged him, "I believe you."

Tristan
Wow this moment is perfect. My mum came in here earlier and cried, Ross told me I was stupid great friend -_- and Sherry came for "moral support". Now Nat comes and I have the first serious conversation of the day yet I have never been happier. Wow I should've fallen off a cliff sooner because this day could not get any better. Then my dad walked in...

Natalie
I heard a door open and jumped away from Tristan, not that we were doing anything wrong in the first place but still. I turned and saw his dad walking in, I actually have no idea if he came in earlier but judging from Tristan's facial expression and what he said earlier imma guess he didn't.
" Well this is kinda awkward for me so I'm just gonna go. Have a good talk." Of course I have to say something stupid before I leave but that went better than I expected so happiness all around. Weird considering we're at a hospital but whatever.
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OK so that chapter took forever because exams are stupid and lasted like a month. I was planning to post that on my bday which was like three weeks ago but then exams were stupid again and I had to study instead not that it paid off -_- I'm literally just ranting here because I can but now its SUMMERRRRR!!!!! So summer stuff starts and finishing this book and stuff even though it's almost done.

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