Original slam poem I made on June 27th 2023.
Sorry for any spelling errors!
Tw:if you are sensitive to certain topics I suggest to not read!! :D
When you were the only person I talked to it was like a addicting drug that I couldn't let go. We got into a fight then called each other names. My brain felt like it was melting in my hands I didn't know how to act whenever you showed up. My hands turned stiff gripping a pencil it felt like a punishment I gave myself for being desperate for your love and I am just way to scared to grow up, Another day goes by and there is always a thought that I tried to bury deep into my mind that kept coming back. I missed you, I missed your hugs, I missed hanging out with you, but I keep forcing myself to forget about you. It will never be the same. I feel like a child waiting for their parent too come back home. I feel so stupid for waiting for you to come back. It feels like someone is screwing nails in my brain and I can't unscrew them, like I'm sailing a boat through the ocean and the massive waves of water splashes on me and I become cold and terrified with shivers going up my body staring at the water thinking how I hate it so much but I love it at the same time. I'm starting to accept with how you think of me. It's not your fault for the situations you got put in. It's not your fault your nightmares keep you up at night. None of this is your fault. I don't know how to love even though I'm so desperate for it, But there is one thing I know.
I still love you.
