𝔸𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕄𝕖

a goofy 7yo to a writer?!?!!!! 1! 1!???! 1

A bit of this is pretty venty lol

... ℕ𝕒𝕙.

I have never thought about this ever, but looking back when I was 7-9 was an experience.. -

Like, s̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕r̴̨̦͕̝ỉ͔͖̜͌o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇s̠҉͍͊ͅl̙͖̑̾ͣy҉̃̀̋̑.

Now when I was an adorable pale ahh goofy 7 year old I was quite happy and naive, until ꪱׁׁׁׅׅׅtׁׅ'ׅ struck. I was locked in the same room that I have been in, and still is, for years. My friends vanished from sight and I had nothing. I had no idea what was going on. I was never told by anyone. And then I was given an iPad from the school.

Now I was confused and weirded out. Why the 𝕗𝕦𝕔𝕜 was I given an iPad? Why was I told to do work? Was this a joke?

No, it was online school.

Online school is the worst thing that had ever happened to me and I personally wish will never happen again. I lost it, I had a horrible mindset. It was scattered everywhere like the papers I had to print out and submit.

No friends, no mercy from my parents, and restrictions were everywhere. I had a personal tablet for myself, but it had parental controls on it, and it was always taken away by my parents until I finished my work.

Which almost never happened, because I didn't know anything about this new, sudden thing. In fact, I didn't like it. Not at all. My father took (basically my life support) away from me and would slap me if I ever did, aka, YouTube. YouTube was the website that was always there for me when I was sad and bored.

I've downloaded it on my Roku and watched it when my parents weren't in the living room with me. Usually, I watched SMG4, whom is my absolute favourite YouTuber. They made me laugh a bunch.

But thanks to my father, it was limited, as well as my privacy. I was being "supervised" by my narcissistic sister. And my sanity was gone. So, I started talking to myself and my imaginary friends. Who was Jason, Ariana, and my friend Zoey too. I acted like they were all there with me.

When they weren't. At all. No one. No friend. Nothing.

It makes me sad thinking about it, I was never educated properly and I was just taught my multiplication and stuff. I didn't even know anything about the FSA, and I was never prepared for it. No one told me anything about it and I was helpless.

I brought my tablet there and played games on it, which of course got on my record and everyone's test got invalidated. My mom yelled at me like she's told me hundreds of times not to on the way home, and grounded me for what really felt like months.

What else? My father yelled at me for watching, I'm not kidding, I N N O C E N T and C U T E kittens on YouTube. Then called me the worst child he's ever had and slapped me and gave me 1 second to find the Roku remote and exit out before he yelled at me again and slapped me.

I'm so happy he's in Tennessee, I'm sick of him. But then again it really isn't his fault since he went to war, but also it is because he didn't talk to no one and took all his anger out on me.

If you ever somehow find him, do not harass him or hate on him.

Anyways, it's December, 2021 now. And I was told that I was going back to public school. Oh the look on my face.. I was as happy as a child when they could go to Disney Land after waiting for years. I could finally see my friends again!

I excused myself that I had to go happily to my virtual 4th grade teacher on our final zoom call and played The Presentation Experience on Roblox. I honestly can't describe to you how happy I was, I felt so glad, so, so, thrilled. My depression was cured immediately.

And that was when the best year (for me) had begun. I was back in public school, the student next to me was caliethefoxx and the other was some boy I think. I didn't really know Calie very well. We just spoke and remainded to be seen. However, I met a different friend. Rylann. On the first day back in public school in January 2022.

We were friends until two weeks ago. It was a shame to realize she was terrible to everyone I knew. Mainly Calie. Anywho, I've made many friends, and tons admired my taste in drawing. I enjoyed it very well. At the end of the year, Calie and I were besties and we started to hang out a lot. Rylann and I had a few small fights. But we were all friends.

Then during summer I've met new friends online which literally changed my life and I've started getting better :D

Until 2023.....

Could be better lmao
Tbh if I ever met past me I'd hug them. This is dramatic asf lol